Today was the last day the boys were going to be in town. A whole week had gone by since the New Year’s Eve party. I met Mr. and Mrs. Jonas a couple days after and they were very sweet to me. Frankie was adorable and he was quite the smooth talker. Mrs. Jonas was very supportive of the whole situation with the death of Lucas. Apparently the boys told her what happened. She gave me great advice and she insisted I talk to her if I needed any help. She was really sweet and she hated when I called her Mrs. Jonas, she felt old so she made me call her Denise, which was kind of awkward at first. When I wasn’t working I was with the Jonas family. I barely spent anytime at home except when I had to sleep. Joe and I never spoke about the kiss we shared on New Year. None of us dared to speak about it. It was kind of awkward being around him after that so I spent time mostly with Kevin. I didn’t know where that kiss left us. Were we friends or more than friends? Today the Jonas’ were having a picnic at the Amelia Earhart Park. I was getting ready to leave when Edward knocked on the door to my room.
“Come in” I yelled from the bottom of the stairs.
“Are you busy?” he asked as he walked down the steps.
“I was just leaving” I replied.
“Oh I just wanted to talk to you about something but it can wait” he said as he began to turn around and head back up the stairs.
“No I got time what’s up?” I sat on my bed and motioned for him to sit as well.
“Well I’m thinking about leaving” he began as he took a seat across from me on my computer seat.
“What do you mean leaving?” I asked kind of confused. Did he mean like moving away?
“Moving out away from this hell hole” he replied.
“Oh so you’re leaving me” I said sadly.
“Isabella” he began.
“No it’s okay I understand you have to do what you have to do” I cut him off. “I’ll be fine don’t worry about me” I added as I got up and walked towards the stairs.
“That’s not what I meant” he walked up behind me.
“Hope you have a nice life” I replied as I grabbed my keys and started going up the stairs.
“I want you to go with me” he yelled and I stopped dead in my tracks.
“What?” I turned around and looked at him.
“That’s what I meant. I’m thinking about leaving and I want you to go with me please” he explained.
“I don’t know” I began to step down.
“Look this place isn’t doing you any good. You don’t feel safe and that’s just not the home you should be living in. I’ve been saving money since I started working for my mother and I have more than enough to leave and to take you with me” he advised.
“Edward I” I started.
“I promised I would look after you and that’s just what I’m going to do but it takes two. I’m not going to force you to leave but I’m giving you the option of going with me. We can share an apartment or something but if you choose to stay then I’ll have no choice but to respect your decision. Whatever you decide I’m with you 100% but I just can’t take it here anymore. All the abuse, the disrespect I’m done with it Is and you should be too” he explained.
“Give me time to think about it” I replied.
“I went searching for an apartment yesterday and I found this really nice one near downtown Miami and it’s running really cheap. It has two bedrooms and two bathrooms it’s really nice and it has a lot of space. I have a week to decide if I’m going to take it so let me know please” he answered. “Please think about it really well” he begged.
“I will and thanks” I hugged him.
“Well I’ll see you later” he headed up the stairs.
“Bye” I said as he disappeared out the door.
Wow! He practically just gave me my ticket to freedom. He was very smart. He was saving money the same way I did. We could move out together and then maybe I could go to UCLA like I always dreamed of going. But then what if I lose my job? How will I get the rest of the money to pay for school? It’s a lot to think of. I can’t leave this home it’s all I have left of my parents. This house and the store were the only things left. I headed up the stairs and got into my car. The Jonas’ were waiting for me.
I arrived at the park fifteen minutes later. Paul already had the grill going and Denise was setting the table under the little hut. Nick was on the bridge with Peyton throwing rocks into the pond. Joe and Kevin were playing catch with Frankie on the grass.
“Hi Mrs. Jo- I mean Denise” I smiled as I leaned in to give her a kiss on the cheek.
“Hey Isabella” she greeted back. “Boys Isabella’s here” she yelled.
“Isabella” Frankie yelled as he ran up to hug me.
“Hey Frankie” I hugged him back.
“What’s up Bells?” Joe said to me.
“Hey Is” Kevin greeted.
“I thought this was supposed to be a picnic” I motioned towards their dad on the grill. They looked at me confused. “Well you know picnic baskets, blanket, and sandwiches” I added.
“Oh well we’ve decided to go modern” Kevin laughed.
“You mean barbecue” I playfully punched him in the arm.
“You want to play catch” Frankie asked as he pulled my hand.
“Sure why not?” I replied as I ran along with him onto the grass.
Lunch was ready not long after we began to play and we all sat together and ate. For once I felt like family and I felt loved. After we ate Joe, Kevin and I sat on the grass and spoke. I explained to them about Edward wanting to move out and they both agreed that I should do it. They both thought that it was what was best for me. I needed to get out of that house. Even I knew that.
“Can we talk?” Joe asked.
“Uh sure” I said as I got up and followed him.
“So you’re leaving. That’s great maybe you can finally go to study writing or become the rockstar you’ve always wanted to be” he said.
“Shh Joe no one knows about that. I’ve long forgotten that dream alright it’s not going to happen” I whispered.
“Why won’t you ever sing for me?” he asked.
“Because I sound horrible” I replied.
“I bet you’re just saying that so I leave you alone cause believe me you do not sound horrible” he smiled.
“And how would you know that?” I asked.
“Well ever since you know” he meant Lucas’ death. “You haven’t been very smart. Whenever we speak on video chat there are times you forget to turn of your camera. I’ve seen you sing in your room and you’re not bad Bells” he smiled.
“Not bad?” I felt offended.
“I’ve seen better,” he laughed.
“Gee thanks”
“Just kidding Belle you’re great and you can’t keep talent like that away from the world”
“Okay I’ll keep that in mind” I replied.
“What I really wanted to talk about was the New Year’s Eve party. Do you like regret what happened cause I don’t. I’ve been thinking a lot about it” he said as we walked towards the bridge.
“I’ve thought about it too and I don’t really regret it either it’s just that I don’t know what to say” I replied and he kissed me again just like the other night. It was nice and soft. “So where does this leave us Joe?” I asked once he pulled away.
“I want to be with you Bells. Ever since I first started talking to you I thought you were amazing and I still do. I want for you to be my girlfriend but if you don’t want to I understand totally I-” I kissed him. Maybe that would make him stop babbling “Is that a yes?” he asked. I kissed him again. I nodded then I smiled and when I looked behind him Kevin was staring straight at us with hurt and pain in his eyes.
Saturday, July 18, 2009
CHAPTER 25:
When I arrived home after the funeral of coarse Nicole was furious but I didn’t care and neither did Edward. She gave us a speech and all but we just walked past her and towards our rooms. I went straight to bed that night. For the next month that’s how it was work then home to bed. The boys were on vacation so they spent and extra two weeks in Miami to make sure I was alright. Christmas was terrible, it was Lucas’ 20th birthday and two days later it made a month since his death. Today was New Year’s Eve and luckily the store was closed today so I didn’t have to work. Edward came into my room earlier and told me that the boys called cause they were in town and they wanted us to go with them to a rockin’ New Year’s Eve party. I really didn’t want to go but Edward insisted that it was time for me to take a step out into the world. For the past month I haven’t been out anywhere except to work. I haven’t seen Peyton or Ariel and I’ve only spoken to them twice since the funeral. I dragged myself to change into descent attire for today. I slipped on a pair of black (skinny) dress pants and a nice white shirt. I put on a pair of black high heel boots and my long grey coat it was kind of chilly outside. I put on a bit of eyeliner, dark smoky eye shadow and left my hair loose in wavy curls.
“You ready?” Edward asked as he walked down the steps into my room. He was wearing black dress pants and a black dress shirt. His hair was nicely tied up in a ponytail.
“Yeah let’s go” I replied as I grabbed my bag and followed him up the steps.
The “family” wasn’t “home” so we dodged the whole twenty-one questions. We got into his camaro and drove to the party. It was a couple blocks away from the hotel the boys were staying at. The party was at a beach house. The boys had just arrived when we got there.
“Hey Is” Kevin greeted me as he hugged.
“Hi Kevin” I hugged back.
“Bells!” Joe yelled as he hugged me once Kevin stepped away.
“Hey Joe” I giggled.
“What’s up guys?” Edward greeted as they gave each other hi fives and all those things guys do.
“So who’s house is this anyways?” I asked as we began to walk towards the front door.
“An old family friend she’s throwing a party but my parent’s couldn’t make it so they sent us alone.” Kevin explained.
“Frankie got sick, poor kid. They had to stay with him but they’ll be here tomorrow” Joe added.
We entered the house it was full of Disney kids. It was one of those rockin’ New Year’s Eve things they do every year in New York Times Square. This year they all got together and convinced the head of the whole corporation to host it here in Miami on the beach where we could see the fireworks clearer, and the boys’ family friend had just the right spot for it. The house was huge and behind it was a big deck with a pool and a slide. Just on the side was a couple steps that lead to the big stage where everyone was going to perform. Below the deck were steps that lead to the dance floor and the big open beach that was lit up with tiki torches where people danced as well. They introduced us to the owner of the party shockingly it was someone famous I had seen in a Disney movie not long ago. Hillary Duff. Apparently the Jonas’ family and her family were close friends. After she gave us a tour of the house and gave us access to anything we wanted I went to sit by the tiki bar out by the beach. It wasn’t as chilly as I thought it would be so I left my jacket in the car luckily I wasn’t wearing a long sleeve shirt. Joe was talking to Edward near the pool and Kevin was walking towards me.
“Wanna take a walk?” he asked me.
“Uh sure why not?” I replied.
He reached for my hand and I gladly gave it to him as we walked down the lit beach. The waves were calm and the sky was clear and beautiful. The stars were so visible tonight and the moon shined as bright as ever over the dark blue water. He let go of my hand and bent to pick up a shell. He handed me a beautiful pearl white shell and then slipped his hands into his pant pockets as we walked side by side.
“So how are you?” he asked breaking the silence.
“I’m okay I guess” I said simply.
“How you holding up?”
“I’m making it through you know day by day” I replied.
“I heard you haven’t been out much” he stated.
“Where did you hear that?” Okay I knew but still. “I’ve been out to places” I added.
“Work doesn’t count” he stared at me.
“Okay fine I haven’t gone out big deal” I said as I stopped walking and looked at him.
“That’s not good you have to get out Is you have to try to move on” he explained.
“I can’t I’m not ready” I sat on the sand and stared out at the ocean before me.
“No one ever is but it’s part of the healing process look we’re going to be here for the next week and I promise I’ll take you out at least to get some fresh air you need it” he offered.
“I don’t know Kevin” I began.
“Please I want to help and plus I promised your parents and Lucas that I would help take care of you” he begged. “Let me help you”
“We’ll see okay” I replied and he nodded.
“We should start heading back it’s almost midnight and we have to perform” he informed me.
“Without Nick?” I asked.
“Nick’s here he arrived not long after we did. He was with Peyton so he came afterward in a taxi” he explained.
“Oh alright then let’s go” I said as Kevin helped me to my feet.
We walked back to the party and Miley was performing. I greeted Nick and then went to hang out with Edward while the boys got ready to perform next. Miley sung her hit ‘Breakout’ and then the boys were up. Everyone sung and danced around the stage while they performed ‘Burning Up’. They got their round of applauses and then they came to join us once again. Nick left right after because he wanted to be with Peyton when the clock struck twelve so Kevin and Joe let him go. Taylor Swift was up on stage next and she began to sing ‘Crazier’ from the upcoming movie Hannah Montana in which she was making an appearance.
“Want to dance?” Joe asked as she began to sing.
“Alright” I agreed as he stuck out his hand for me to take.
We walked to the sand on the beach and began to dance. I never knew Joe knew how to slow dance. He pulled me closer to him and really swept me off my feet. We stared into each other’s eyes as we moved together to the sound of the music. We didn’t know the song ended until she began to talk. We were in another world. It was just the two of us.
“Alright everybody I believe it’s time for the countdown” she yelled into the mic and both Joe and I came back into reality. We smiled and then turned to face her on stage. A screen came down from behind her and Times Square appeared on it. There was thirty seconds until midnight. Joe held my hand as we began to cheer with the crowd. Edward and Kevin were close by the pool shouting the countdown.
“Ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three, two, one” I cheered beside Joe. “Happy New Year whoo!” I yelled as I giggled at how much fun this was. I turned to face Joe and he turned to face me.
“Happy New Year Bells!” he yelled.
“Happy New Year Joe” I replied and he pulled me in a tight hug.
Everyone around us was jumping up and down cheering, drinking, or congratulating one another. Some people even jumped into the pool. Joe pulled away from me stared into my eyes and smiled. He brushed my hair back and moved closer towards me. Then before I knew it his lips were on mine and I was kissing back.
“You ready?” Edward asked as he walked down the steps into my room. He was wearing black dress pants and a black dress shirt. His hair was nicely tied up in a ponytail.
“Yeah let’s go” I replied as I grabbed my bag and followed him up the steps.
The “family” wasn’t “home” so we dodged the whole twenty-one questions. We got into his camaro and drove to the party. It was a couple blocks away from the hotel the boys were staying at. The party was at a beach house. The boys had just arrived when we got there.
“Hey Is” Kevin greeted me as he hugged.
“Hi Kevin” I hugged back.
“Bells!” Joe yelled as he hugged me once Kevin stepped away.
“Hey Joe” I giggled.
“What’s up guys?” Edward greeted as they gave each other hi fives and all those things guys do.
“So who’s house is this anyways?” I asked as we began to walk towards the front door.
“An old family friend she’s throwing a party but my parent’s couldn’t make it so they sent us alone.” Kevin explained.
“Frankie got sick, poor kid. They had to stay with him but they’ll be here tomorrow” Joe added.
We entered the house it was full of Disney kids. It was one of those rockin’ New Year’s Eve things they do every year in New York Times Square. This year they all got together and convinced the head of the whole corporation to host it here in Miami on the beach where we could see the fireworks clearer, and the boys’ family friend had just the right spot for it. The house was huge and behind it was a big deck with a pool and a slide. Just on the side was a couple steps that lead to the big stage where everyone was going to perform. Below the deck were steps that lead to the dance floor and the big open beach that was lit up with tiki torches where people danced as well. They introduced us to the owner of the party shockingly it was someone famous I had seen in a Disney movie not long ago. Hillary Duff. Apparently the Jonas’ family and her family were close friends. After she gave us a tour of the house and gave us access to anything we wanted I went to sit by the tiki bar out by the beach. It wasn’t as chilly as I thought it would be so I left my jacket in the car luckily I wasn’t wearing a long sleeve shirt. Joe was talking to Edward near the pool and Kevin was walking towards me.
“Wanna take a walk?” he asked me.
“Uh sure why not?” I replied.
He reached for my hand and I gladly gave it to him as we walked down the lit beach. The waves were calm and the sky was clear and beautiful. The stars were so visible tonight and the moon shined as bright as ever over the dark blue water. He let go of my hand and bent to pick up a shell. He handed me a beautiful pearl white shell and then slipped his hands into his pant pockets as we walked side by side.
“So how are you?” he asked breaking the silence.
“I’m okay I guess” I said simply.
“How you holding up?”
“I’m making it through you know day by day” I replied.
“I heard you haven’t been out much” he stated.
“Where did you hear that?” Okay I knew but still. “I’ve been out to places” I added.
“Work doesn’t count” he stared at me.
“Okay fine I haven’t gone out big deal” I said as I stopped walking and looked at him.
“That’s not good you have to get out Is you have to try to move on” he explained.
“I can’t I’m not ready” I sat on the sand and stared out at the ocean before me.
“No one ever is but it’s part of the healing process look we’re going to be here for the next week and I promise I’ll take you out at least to get some fresh air you need it” he offered.
“I don’t know Kevin” I began.
“Please I want to help and plus I promised your parents and Lucas that I would help take care of you” he begged. “Let me help you”
“We’ll see okay” I replied and he nodded.
“We should start heading back it’s almost midnight and we have to perform” he informed me.
“Without Nick?” I asked.
“Nick’s here he arrived not long after we did. He was with Peyton so he came afterward in a taxi” he explained.
“Oh alright then let’s go” I said as Kevin helped me to my feet.
We walked back to the party and Miley was performing. I greeted Nick and then went to hang out with Edward while the boys got ready to perform next. Miley sung her hit ‘Breakout’ and then the boys were up. Everyone sung and danced around the stage while they performed ‘Burning Up’. They got their round of applauses and then they came to join us once again. Nick left right after because he wanted to be with Peyton when the clock struck twelve so Kevin and Joe let him go. Taylor Swift was up on stage next and she began to sing ‘Crazier’ from the upcoming movie Hannah Montana in which she was making an appearance.
“Want to dance?” Joe asked as she began to sing.
“Alright” I agreed as he stuck out his hand for me to take.
We walked to the sand on the beach and began to dance. I never knew Joe knew how to slow dance. He pulled me closer to him and really swept me off my feet. We stared into each other’s eyes as we moved together to the sound of the music. We didn’t know the song ended until she began to talk. We were in another world. It was just the two of us.
“Alright everybody I believe it’s time for the countdown” she yelled into the mic and both Joe and I came back into reality. We smiled and then turned to face her on stage. A screen came down from behind her and Times Square appeared on it. There was thirty seconds until midnight. Joe held my hand as we began to cheer with the crowd. Edward and Kevin were close by the pool shouting the countdown.
“Ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three, two, one” I cheered beside Joe. “Happy New Year whoo!” I yelled as I giggled at how much fun this was. I turned to face Joe and he turned to face me.
“Happy New Year Bells!” he yelled.
“Happy New Year Joe” I replied and he pulled me in a tight hug.
Everyone around us was jumping up and down cheering, drinking, or congratulating one another. Some people even jumped into the pool. Joe pulled away from me stared into my eyes and smiled. He brushed my hair back and moved closer towards me. Then before I knew it his lips were on mine and I was kissing back.
CHAPTER 24: THE FUNERAL
*LISTEN TO FOREVER AND ALMOST ALWAYS & LIFT ME UP BOTH BY KATE VOEGELE WHILE YOU READ THIS I PROMISE IT WILL MAKE THE CHAPTER BETTER YOU WILL UNDERSTAND THE LYRICS AND THE CHAPTER A LOT BETTER*
In an ordinary fairy tale land
There's a promise of a perfect happy end
And I imagine having just short of that
Is better than nothing
So you'll be mine
Forever and almost always
And I'll be fine
Just love me when you can
And I'll wait patiently
I'll wake up every day
Just hoping that you still care
*ISABELLA’S POV*
We arrived at the cemetery minutes later. The Davis family was just arriving and so were other people. Today was a very sad and emotional day. As I stared at the casket as they unloaded it from the car I remembered the old times. We gathered around it as the priest began to speak. Peyton and Ariel were standing beside each other holding hands as they mourned the death of their beloved brother. Beside them Mr. Davis held Mrs. Davis as she cried over the loss of their son. I stood beside Edward on the opposite side of Ariel and Peyton. I fought to hold back the tears but I just couldn’t. This cemetery brought back to many memories.
*FLASHBACK*
It was the day of my mom and dad’s funeral. Lucas promised to go with me because I didn’t want to be there alone I wasn’t brave enough. The car stopped and they unloaded the caskets from the other car as Lucas and I climbed out of this one. Nicole was standing with her three children while I stood with Lucas on the opposite side. I tried to be brave and not cry but I was seven what did you expect. I began to cry silently as the priest began to speak. Lucas slipped his hand into mine and whispered into my ear. “Don’t worry I'm here for you. I always will be I promise” and then he kissed my head and pulled me into a hug. I cried on his shoulder as he squeezed me tight. He held my hand until the end. He walked up to the caskets with me as I threw a single white rose on each and he held my hand as we walked back to our places. He held my hand as we got into the car and drove away from the cemetery.
Memories they're following me like a shadow now
And I'm dreamin'
Cause I've already suffered the fever of disbelief
I've seen your act
And I know all the facts
I'm still in love with who I wish you were
It ain't hard to see
Who you are underneath
I'm still in love with who I wish you were
And I wish you were here
*PRESENT*
And every time I visited my parents he was there to hold my hand except for today when we were burying him. I looked up to see Edward looking at me. He put an arm around my shoulder and pulled me closer to him as I let the tears flow. I looked up to see Ariel and Peyton walk up to the casket. They each placed a flower on top and then Ariel slowly stepped away. Peyton stood over the casket and cried. Ariel watched her little sister cry and she couldn’t help but cry herself. I looked up to see Edward watching Ariel. He was hurt because he couldn’t help her. He couldn’t make the pain go away. It was the same way Lucas felt when I cried over my parents. I moved away from Edward and motioned for him to go comfort her.
“You sure?” he asked and I nodded. He kissed my head and walked over to Ariel.
She looked up at him and then threw herself into his arms and cried like I’ve never seen her cry before. I was about to take a step toward Peyton to comfort her when I saw him. He was dressed in a black suit similar to Edward’s and every other male around. He lifted her hand into his and then placed his other hand under her chin and slowly lifted it. She looked up at him in confusion. “I'm sorry” he mouthed and you could see the tears in his eyes. Tears began to flow again and she covered her mouth. He let go of her and pulled her into a hug as he placed one hand on her back and the other on her face as he gently pulled her hair back. I looked around. Edward was with Ariel and Peyton was with Nick. I was alone. I looked down and wrapped my arms around my chest as I silently cried to myself.
A hand was placed on my left shoulder. “You’re not alone” I heard a voice. Another hand was placed on my right shoulder. “We’re here for you” the other voice said. I looked up to the first voice on my left. “Kevin” I whispered through tears. I looked to my right. “Joe” I placed my hands on theirs.
“What are you guys doing here?” I asked as I cried more.
“Sorry we’re late we had to pick up Nick from the airport” Joe apologized.
“But we’re here now and we’re not leaving until you ask us too” Kevin replied.
“Guys” I cried.
“It’s okay” Joe said as he hugged me.
“Thank you so much” I pulled away and hugged Kevin.
They both stood by my side and each held one of my hands. They both walked up to the casket with me and they each placed a rose on it.
“We didn’t know you but we did know that you were a great person and you were very special to Isabella and we thank you for that” Joe said.
“We promise to watch over her because we know the next couple months will be very tough for her. So don’t worry she’s in good hands” Kevin said.
“I'm sorry Lucas. I promise I will always remember you in here” I let go of Joe’s hand and placed mine on my chest. “You will always be a part of me always and forever like you used to say. I'm not mad at you for leaving cause I know you didn’t mean to. Just promise you’ll never forget me up their. Say ‘hi’ to my parents and my grandparents for me. Tell them that I love them” I fought the tears that slowly poured. “I‘ll be with you guys again someday but until then remember that I love you. See you later Luke” I broke down and both Kevin and Joe hugged me as I cried in their arms. “Goodbye” I whispered.
We walked back to our places and I watched as they lowered the casket into the ground. Peyton and Ariel we’re standing beside each other holding hands. Edward was holding Ariel’s other hand and Nick was holding Peyton’s other hand. “My baby!” Mrs. Davis cried out as the top of the casket disappeared into the ground. That’s it. It was over Lucas was gone and there was no going back. I slowly walked away and then stopped.
“Do you need for us to take you home?” Kevin asked me.
“What is a home? Huh? Your safe haven. The place you’re supposed to feel welcomed, loved, secure and where a family lives together happily. If so then I don’t live in a home. It’s just a place a house and no I don’t want to go back there not yet. There’s something I have to do first” I walked away. I crossed the small road onto the other side of the cemetery. I walked up to their graves and fell onto my knees.
“Hey mom, hey dad” I looked at both of their graves. “I'm sorry I haven’t come around lately it’s just that a lot has happened” tears welded in my eyes. “Remember my best friend Lucas?” I asked. “Well he died on thanksgiving. How awful is that?” tears fell. “Today was his funeral” I looked back to see Joe and Kevin standing near but at the same time giving me some space. “You see over there that’s where they buried him” I pointed towards them. “The whole family is over there pouring their hearts out and crying. It kind of reminds me of how I was when I had to watch them bury you. The only difference is that I had Lucas to help me get through the pain now I have” I paused.
“She has us Joe and Kevin” Joe stepped up beside me.
“And she has me” Edward knelt down beside me and placed a bouquet of flowers on each grave. “These are for you Aunt Anastasia they’re you’re favorite. Daisies I remembered. And these are for you Uncle Dominique I didn’t know if you had a favorite so I got roses” he smiled. “Don’t worry we’ll take good care of Isabella we promise” he kissed my cheek.
“You see I’ll be okay so you don’t have to worry about me. I’ll be alright and I promise to visit more often okay” I looked up at the sky and dark clouds began to form above. “I love you” I said and then Edward helped to get back on my feet.
It began to rain softly. I turned around and saw Ariel staring at me a couple feet away. I started walking towards her as she walked towards me. Then the walk turned into a run and then she flew into my arms and squeezed me tight.
“He’s gone” she cried into my hair.
“I know he left us alone just like my parents” I cried into her hair.
“I'm so sorry about all this”
“Me too but we have to be strong about it” I cried. “It’s what they would want for us. Lucas wouldn’t want to see us cry for him everyday” I said. “We have to be strong for each other” I pulled back. “But most of all we have to be strong for her” I looked behind her and she turned to see Peyton crying hysterically in Nick’s arms.
“Peyton” she replied to me as we both wiped our tears. “We got to be strong for her” she said.
“I'm here for you if need anyone okay sweetie” I said to her as I pulled the hair out of her face.
“Yeah same here” she tried her best to form a smile.
“I’ll see you around kiddo” I said as I stepped back.
“See you”
It began to pour harder.
This road is anything but simple
Twisted like a riddle
I've seen high and I've seen low
So loud, the voices of all my doubts
Telling me to give up
To pack up and leave town
Somewhere, everybody starts there
Counting on a small prayer
Lost in a nightmare
But I'm here and suddenly it's so clear
The struggle through the long years
It taught me to outrun my fears
In an ordinary fairy tale land
There's a promise of a perfect happy end
And I imagine having just short of that
Is better than nothing
So you'll be mine
Forever and almost always
And I'll be fine
Just love me when you can
And I'll wait patiently
I'll wake up every day
Just hoping that you still care
*ISABELLA’S POV*
We arrived at the cemetery minutes later. The Davis family was just arriving and so were other people. Today was a very sad and emotional day. As I stared at the casket as they unloaded it from the car I remembered the old times. We gathered around it as the priest began to speak. Peyton and Ariel were standing beside each other holding hands as they mourned the death of their beloved brother. Beside them Mr. Davis held Mrs. Davis as she cried over the loss of their son. I stood beside Edward on the opposite side of Ariel and Peyton. I fought to hold back the tears but I just couldn’t. This cemetery brought back to many memories.
*FLASHBACK*
It was the day of my mom and dad’s funeral. Lucas promised to go with me because I didn’t want to be there alone I wasn’t brave enough. The car stopped and they unloaded the caskets from the other car as Lucas and I climbed out of this one. Nicole was standing with her three children while I stood with Lucas on the opposite side. I tried to be brave and not cry but I was seven what did you expect. I began to cry silently as the priest began to speak. Lucas slipped his hand into mine and whispered into my ear. “Don’t worry I'm here for you. I always will be I promise” and then he kissed my head and pulled me into a hug. I cried on his shoulder as he squeezed me tight. He held my hand until the end. He walked up to the caskets with me as I threw a single white rose on each and he held my hand as we walked back to our places. He held my hand as we got into the car and drove away from the cemetery.
Memories they're following me like a shadow now
And I'm dreamin'
Cause I've already suffered the fever of disbelief
I've seen your act
And I know all the facts
I'm still in love with who I wish you were
It ain't hard to see
Who you are underneath
I'm still in love with who I wish you were
And I wish you were here
*PRESENT*
And every time I visited my parents he was there to hold my hand except for today when we were burying him. I looked up to see Edward looking at me. He put an arm around my shoulder and pulled me closer to him as I let the tears flow. I looked up to see Ariel and Peyton walk up to the casket. They each placed a flower on top and then Ariel slowly stepped away. Peyton stood over the casket and cried. Ariel watched her little sister cry and she couldn’t help but cry herself. I looked up to see Edward watching Ariel. He was hurt because he couldn’t help her. He couldn’t make the pain go away. It was the same way Lucas felt when I cried over my parents. I moved away from Edward and motioned for him to go comfort her.
“You sure?” he asked and I nodded. He kissed my head and walked over to Ariel.
She looked up at him and then threw herself into his arms and cried like I’ve never seen her cry before. I was about to take a step toward Peyton to comfort her when I saw him. He was dressed in a black suit similar to Edward’s and every other male around. He lifted her hand into his and then placed his other hand under her chin and slowly lifted it. She looked up at him in confusion. “I'm sorry” he mouthed and you could see the tears in his eyes. Tears began to flow again and she covered her mouth. He let go of her and pulled her into a hug as he placed one hand on her back and the other on her face as he gently pulled her hair back. I looked around. Edward was with Ariel and Peyton was with Nick. I was alone. I looked down and wrapped my arms around my chest as I silently cried to myself.
A hand was placed on my left shoulder. “You’re not alone” I heard a voice. Another hand was placed on my right shoulder. “We’re here for you” the other voice said. I looked up to the first voice on my left. “Kevin” I whispered through tears. I looked to my right. “Joe” I placed my hands on theirs.
“What are you guys doing here?” I asked as I cried more.
“Sorry we’re late we had to pick up Nick from the airport” Joe apologized.
“But we’re here now and we’re not leaving until you ask us too” Kevin replied.
“Guys” I cried.
“It’s okay” Joe said as he hugged me.
“Thank you so much” I pulled away and hugged Kevin.
They both stood by my side and each held one of my hands. They both walked up to the casket with me and they each placed a rose on it.
“We didn’t know you but we did know that you were a great person and you were very special to Isabella and we thank you for that” Joe said.
“We promise to watch over her because we know the next couple months will be very tough for her. So don’t worry she’s in good hands” Kevin said.
“I'm sorry Lucas. I promise I will always remember you in here” I let go of Joe’s hand and placed mine on my chest. “You will always be a part of me always and forever like you used to say. I'm not mad at you for leaving cause I know you didn’t mean to. Just promise you’ll never forget me up their. Say ‘hi’ to my parents and my grandparents for me. Tell them that I love them” I fought the tears that slowly poured. “I‘ll be with you guys again someday but until then remember that I love you. See you later Luke” I broke down and both Kevin and Joe hugged me as I cried in their arms. “Goodbye” I whispered.
We walked back to our places and I watched as they lowered the casket into the ground. Peyton and Ariel we’re standing beside each other holding hands. Edward was holding Ariel’s other hand and Nick was holding Peyton’s other hand. “My baby!” Mrs. Davis cried out as the top of the casket disappeared into the ground. That’s it. It was over Lucas was gone and there was no going back. I slowly walked away and then stopped.
“Do you need for us to take you home?” Kevin asked me.
“What is a home? Huh? Your safe haven. The place you’re supposed to feel welcomed, loved, secure and where a family lives together happily. If so then I don’t live in a home. It’s just a place a house and no I don’t want to go back there not yet. There’s something I have to do first” I walked away. I crossed the small road onto the other side of the cemetery. I walked up to their graves and fell onto my knees.
“Hey mom, hey dad” I looked at both of their graves. “I'm sorry I haven’t come around lately it’s just that a lot has happened” tears welded in my eyes. “Remember my best friend Lucas?” I asked. “Well he died on thanksgiving. How awful is that?” tears fell. “Today was his funeral” I looked back to see Joe and Kevin standing near but at the same time giving me some space. “You see over there that’s where they buried him” I pointed towards them. “The whole family is over there pouring their hearts out and crying. It kind of reminds me of how I was when I had to watch them bury you. The only difference is that I had Lucas to help me get through the pain now I have” I paused.
“She has us Joe and Kevin” Joe stepped up beside me.
“And she has me” Edward knelt down beside me and placed a bouquet of flowers on each grave. “These are for you Aunt Anastasia they’re you’re favorite. Daisies I remembered. And these are for you Uncle Dominique I didn’t know if you had a favorite so I got roses” he smiled. “Don’t worry we’ll take good care of Isabella we promise” he kissed my cheek.
“You see I’ll be okay so you don’t have to worry about me. I’ll be alright and I promise to visit more often okay” I looked up at the sky and dark clouds began to form above. “I love you” I said and then Edward helped to get back on my feet.
It began to rain softly. I turned around and saw Ariel staring at me a couple feet away. I started walking towards her as she walked towards me. Then the walk turned into a run and then she flew into my arms and squeezed me tight.
“He’s gone” she cried into my hair.
“I know he left us alone just like my parents” I cried into her hair.
“I'm so sorry about all this”
“Me too but we have to be strong about it” I cried. “It’s what they would want for us. Lucas wouldn’t want to see us cry for him everyday” I said. “We have to be strong for each other” I pulled back. “But most of all we have to be strong for her” I looked behind her and she turned to see Peyton crying hysterically in Nick’s arms.
“Peyton” she replied to me as we both wiped our tears. “We got to be strong for her” she said.
“I'm here for you if need anyone okay sweetie” I said to her as I pulled the hair out of her face.
“Yeah same here” she tried her best to form a smile.
“I’ll see you around kiddo” I said as I stepped back.
“See you”
It began to pour harder.
This road is anything but simple
Twisted like a riddle
I've seen high and I've seen low
So loud, the voices of all my doubts
Telling me to give up
To pack up and leave town
Somewhere, everybody starts there
Counting on a small prayer
Lost in a nightmare
But I'm here and suddenly it's so clear
The struggle through the long years
It taught me to outrun my fears
CHAPTER 23:
*ISABELLA’S POV*
It was Sunday November 30th 2009. It’s been three days since Lucas’ accident which caused him his life. Today was the day of his funeral. The third time I have to watch a loved one be lowered into the ground. It was yet another hard day of my life a moment I will never forget. It will be a day I will always remember and carry on with me until it is my time. As I got dressed I looked at a picture of Lucas and me that was sitting on my dresser beside the one of my parents and me. The picture was taken the same day we had our first kiss. We were in the water and we were laughing at something.
*FLASHBACK*
“Let me get a hand here” Lucas said to me as he attempted to push the Jet Ski up on the ramp behind his truck. We had just come in from my Jet Ski lesson in where Lucas and I kind of, sort of kissed.
“Peyton hold this while I help your brother” I said as I handed her the camera she had just handed to me seconds earlier. “Okay what do I do?” I asked as I stepped into the water a bit.
“Get onto the ramp and pull while I push” he explained as he stood in the water that reached his waist.
“Okay I’m ready you can push now” I yelled. After a couple pushes and pulls we got the Jet Ski onto the ramp.
“Alright now let me just strap it tight and we can get my truck out of the water” he said as he climbed up next to me onto the very small space left next to the Jet Ski.
“Luke wait I’m going to fall” I said as my arms flew around as I tried to regain my balance.
“Move over” he complained as he pushed me playfully.
“Luke!” I yelled as I fell back into the water and pulled onto his arm causing him to fall down with me.
“Is!” he yelled as he threw water in my face.
“Stupid I told I was going to fall why did you push me?” I complained. “I was almost dry” I added.
“Sorry” he apologized.
I stared at him for a couple seconds and then out of nowhere we broke into a fit of laughter.
“Hey guys!” Peyton called to us and we turned to face her. Flash.
*PRESENT*
That’s how that picture was taken. Lucas and I were always having fun whenever I wasn’t working. We were always acting so clumsy and fooling around. Peyton was always around to catch those moments either on tape or as a picture to remember. She was always so close to her brother he was like her best friend. They told each other everything and now he’s gone. I guess I’m not the only one who lost a best friend. I finished getting dressed and then I tried best to fix my hair. I combed through the tangles and then ended up putting it into a French braid. I tried best to disguise the blood shot red eyes by applying a bit of eyeliner and dark eye shadow. Once I thought I looked presentable I slipped on my black heels looked at myself once more adjusted the black dress and walked towards the stairs.
“Where are you going dressed like that? I know it’s not work” Virginia said to me as I walked past the kitchen.
“I’m not going to work” I answered strongly as I tried to hold back all the anger I felt towards this family.
“Who do you think you are? You’re going to work or I’m telling my mom” she yelled back fiercely.
“I’m not going to work and you can tell your mom for me I don’t care do whatever the hell you want” I replied.
“Excuse you” she said to me as she stood in front of me to stop me from going anywhere.
“Move Virginia I’m not up for your crap today” I said through gritted teeth.
“What if I don’t?” she asked with a smirk.
“Virginia move I’m not playing with you”
“Make me” she said as she placed her hands on her hips.
“My pleasure” I grabbed her arm and pulled her aside causing her to fall against the wall. “Now I’m leaving princess whether you like it or not” I said to her as she grabbed her arm in pain.
“What’s going on out here?” Nicole said as she stepped out of her room and stood in the hallway.
“Oh mom you should’ve seen what she did to me” Virginia said as she ran towards her mom and played the victim. “I was just trying to let her know that she had to work today but she wouldn’t listen and then when I tried to stop her from leaving so that I could tell her again she grabbed me by the arm and pushed me into the wall” she sobbed.
“Is that true?” Nicole asked me.
“No that’s not what happened” I said to her.
“Yes mom it’s true” I heard Juliet say as she appeared behind her.
“That’s not what happened and you know it so stop lying Virginia” I said to her.
“Well what’s this that you’re not going to work” Nicole said to me.
“I’m not going I can’t go I have somewhere else to be” I simply said to her.
“What’s more important than your obligation to show up at work?” she asked sternly.
“Family emergency there was a death in my family” I answered.
“Well your family is right here and as far as I know none of my children are dead and I’m standing right here” she explained as she placed her hands on her hips. “So I believe I’ll being seeing you at work in fifteen minutes” she added.
“I mean my real family alright my best friend died and I need to be there so before I waste anymore time here I’m going to leave” I answered as I turned around and grabbed my keys off the holder.
“Isabella!” she said sternly. “I’m not playing with you” she added.
“Goodbye Nicole” I answered as I waved.
“Is wait” I heard Edward say and I turned around to see him walking towards me. “I’m going with you we can take my car” he said as he grabbed my keys out of my hand and placed them back on the holder only to grab his instead.
“Edward!” Nicole yelled to him.
“I’m not going to work either mom goodbye” he said as he opened the door and held it open for me to walk out. “See you guys later” he smiled, grabbed my black leather coat along with an umbrella and closed the door.
“Thanks Eddie” I said as he opened the passenger’s door for me.
“Hey someone needs to stand up for you and from now on that’s going to be me” he smiled before he closed the door and walked around to the driver’s side.
As he walked around I noticed how nice he looked. He was wearing a black suit with a white buttoned down shirt that was nicely tucked into his dress pants. He was also wearing a black tie and his light brown hair was out of its ponytail and nicely brushed back very appropriate. My cousin looked really cute. He got into the car behind the wheel of his black 1973 Camaro (the same exact one from transformers only in black instead of the old yellow one and the pin stripes were white instead of black). He looked at me and smiled.
“You look really nice” he complimented me.
“Thanks so do you” I replied.
“Like I said earlier I got your back Is so don’t worry you’re not alone in this” he motioned to the house in front of us. “I’m going to take care of you since Lucas is no longer here to do it” he grabbed my hand and squeezed it. “I’ll watch over you like I promised him I would” he said and then her turned on the car and pulled out of the driveway.
*KEVIN’S POV*
I stepped out of the bathroom to see Joe jotting something down on a piece of paper as he spoke on the phone.
“Uhuh okay” he said into the phone. “It’s at ten thirty” he looked at his watch. “It’s nine but alright we’ll be there thanks” he hung up. “Quick get dressed” he said to me.
“Where are we going?” I asked.
“Here” he said as he handed me the sheet of paper before running into the bathroom to change. “But first we have to stop at the airport” he yelled.
“For what?” I asked.
“You’ll see”
It was Sunday November 30th 2009. It’s been three days since Lucas’ accident which caused him his life. Today was the day of his funeral. The third time I have to watch a loved one be lowered into the ground. It was yet another hard day of my life a moment I will never forget. It will be a day I will always remember and carry on with me until it is my time. As I got dressed I looked at a picture of Lucas and me that was sitting on my dresser beside the one of my parents and me. The picture was taken the same day we had our first kiss. We were in the water and we were laughing at something.
*FLASHBACK*
“Let me get a hand here” Lucas said to me as he attempted to push the Jet Ski up on the ramp behind his truck. We had just come in from my Jet Ski lesson in where Lucas and I kind of, sort of kissed.
“Peyton hold this while I help your brother” I said as I handed her the camera she had just handed to me seconds earlier. “Okay what do I do?” I asked as I stepped into the water a bit.
“Get onto the ramp and pull while I push” he explained as he stood in the water that reached his waist.
“Okay I’m ready you can push now” I yelled. After a couple pushes and pulls we got the Jet Ski onto the ramp.
“Alright now let me just strap it tight and we can get my truck out of the water” he said as he climbed up next to me onto the very small space left next to the Jet Ski.
“Luke wait I’m going to fall” I said as my arms flew around as I tried to regain my balance.
“Move over” he complained as he pushed me playfully.
“Luke!” I yelled as I fell back into the water and pulled onto his arm causing him to fall down with me.
“Is!” he yelled as he threw water in my face.
“Stupid I told I was going to fall why did you push me?” I complained. “I was almost dry” I added.
“Sorry” he apologized.
I stared at him for a couple seconds and then out of nowhere we broke into a fit of laughter.
“Hey guys!” Peyton called to us and we turned to face her. Flash.
*PRESENT*
That’s how that picture was taken. Lucas and I were always having fun whenever I wasn’t working. We were always acting so clumsy and fooling around. Peyton was always around to catch those moments either on tape or as a picture to remember. She was always so close to her brother he was like her best friend. They told each other everything and now he’s gone. I guess I’m not the only one who lost a best friend. I finished getting dressed and then I tried best to fix my hair. I combed through the tangles and then ended up putting it into a French braid. I tried best to disguise the blood shot red eyes by applying a bit of eyeliner and dark eye shadow. Once I thought I looked presentable I slipped on my black heels looked at myself once more adjusted the black dress and walked towards the stairs.
“Where are you going dressed like that? I know it’s not work” Virginia said to me as I walked past the kitchen.
“I’m not going to work” I answered strongly as I tried to hold back all the anger I felt towards this family.
“Who do you think you are? You’re going to work or I’m telling my mom” she yelled back fiercely.
“I’m not going to work and you can tell your mom for me I don’t care do whatever the hell you want” I replied.
“Excuse you” she said to me as she stood in front of me to stop me from going anywhere.
“Move Virginia I’m not up for your crap today” I said through gritted teeth.
“What if I don’t?” she asked with a smirk.
“Virginia move I’m not playing with you”
“Make me” she said as she placed her hands on her hips.
“My pleasure” I grabbed her arm and pulled her aside causing her to fall against the wall. “Now I’m leaving princess whether you like it or not” I said to her as she grabbed her arm in pain.
“What’s going on out here?” Nicole said as she stepped out of her room and stood in the hallway.
“Oh mom you should’ve seen what she did to me” Virginia said as she ran towards her mom and played the victim. “I was just trying to let her know that she had to work today but she wouldn’t listen and then when I tried to stop her from leaving so that I could tell her again she grabbed me by the arm and pushed me into the wall” she sobbed.
“Is that true?” Nicole asked me.
“No that’s not what happened” I said to her.
“Yes mom it’s true” I heard Juliet say as she appeared behind her.
“That’s not what happened and you know it so stop lying Virginia” I said to her.
“Well what’s this that you’re not going to work” Nicole said to me.
“I’m not going I can’t go I have somewhere else to be” I simply said to her.
“What’s more important than your obligation to show up at work?” she asked sternly.
“Family emergency there was a death in my family” I answered.
“Well your family is right here and as far as I know none of my children are dead and I’m standing right here” she explained as she placed her hands on her hips. “So I believe I’ll being seeing you at work in fifteen minutes” she added.
“I mean my real family alright my best friend died and I need to be there so before I waste anymore time here I’m going to leave” I answered as I turned around and grabbed my keys off the holder.
“Isabella!” she said sternly. “I’m not playing with you” she added.
“Goodbye Nicole” I answered as I waved.
“Is wait” I heard Edward say and I turned around to see him walking towards me. “I’m going with you we can take my car” he said as he grabbed my keys out of my hand and placed them back on the holder only to grab his instead.
“Edward!” Nicole yelled to him.
“I’m not going to work either mom goodbye” he said as he opened the door and held it open for me to walk out. “See you guys later” he smiled, grabbed my black leather coat along with an umbrella and closed the door.
“Thanks Eddie” I said as he opened the passenger’s door for me.
“Hey someone needs to stand up for you and from now on that’s going to be me” he smiled before he closed the door and walked around to the driver’s side.
As he walked around I noticed how nice he looked. He was wearing a black suit with a white buttoned down shirt that was nicely tucked into his dress pants. He was also wearing a black tie and his light brown hair was out of its ponytail and nicely brushed back very appropriate. My cousin looked really cute. He got into the car behind the wheel of his black 1973 Camaro (the same exact one from transformers only in black instead of the old yellow one and the pin stripes were white instead of black). He looked at me and smiled.
“You look really nice” he complimented me.
“Thanks so do you” I replied.
“Like I said earlier I got your back Is so don’t worry you’re not alone in this” he motioned to the house in front of us. “I’m going to take care of you since Lucas is no longer here to do it” he grabbed my hand and squeezed it. “I’ll watch over you like I promised him I would” he said and then her turned on the car and pulled out of the driveway.
*KEVIN’S POV*
I stepped out of the bathroom to see Joe jotting something down on a piece of paper as he spoke on the phone.
“Uhuh okay” he said into the phone. “It’s at ten thirty” he looked at his watch. “It’s nine but alright we’ll be there thanks” he hung up. “Quick get dressed” he said to me.
“Where are we going?” I asked.
“Here” he said as he handed me the sheet of paper before running into the bathroom to change. “But first we have to stop at the airport” he yelled.
“For what?” I asked.
“You’ll see”
CHAPTER 22:
The next morning I woke up with a photo of Lucas on my bedside table. I climbed out of bed and went to my computer desk. I turned on my monitor and saw that my AIM box was flashing. I opened it to see that I had a message from Joe
IM For: rockstar550
liveformusic:Hey Bella! =D what's up?
rockstar550:Hey Joe! I can’t really talk right now something came up and I have to leave asap
liveformusic:Is everything ok?
rockstar550:Remember my best friend Lucas
liveformusic:Yea
rockstar550:He was coming down to Miami to visit me for thanksgiving and his plane crashed he’s in the hospital and he might not make it through the night
liveformusic:Omg Isabella I'm so sorry
rockstar550:It’s not your fault things like this just always seem to happen to me but I gotta go I want to be with him the last few minutes.
liveformusic:Everythings going to be ok I promise
rockstar550:No it won’t now I really have to go
liveformusic:I'm taking the next plane out to Miami
liveformusic:I’m here
liveformusic: Can we please meet somewhere? I came to be here for you! I’m sorry about what’s going on! I think I sort of just met you I’m not sure though so can we please meet tomorrow somewhere I need to know for sure. IM me whenever you get this message.
He had sent me three messages since I left last night.
rockstar550:I really appreciate what you did. Coming all the way out here
liveformusic:I just wanted to be there for you
rockstar550:Thanks
liveformusic:Your welcome and I think it’s about time we meet it’s been almost two years since we met
rockstar550:Yea I agree
liveformusic:Even though I think we sort of did
rockstar550:Yea me too but I have this strange feeling it was all a dream
liveformusic:Me2
rockstar550:So where do you want to meet?
liveformusic:There’s a Starbucks near where I’m staying do you think you could meet me there
rockstar550:Yea sure
liveformusic:Well I’m staying at the Hilton Hotel in Miami Beach do you know where that’s at?
rockstar550:Yea I’ll be there in about half an hour
liveformusic:Ok see you then
rockstar550:Hey Joe?
liveformusic:Yea Isabella
rockstar550:How come you never told me you were Joe Jonas?
liveformusic:Uh... I’ll see you in a bit
He replied and with that, he signed off.
I went to the bathroom, showered, and got dressed and then I decided to head out to meet Joe. As I walked passed the living room and passed the kitchen I heard a voice I really didn’t feel like listening to right now.
“Where are you going?” her snotty annoying voice asked.
“Why good morning to you too Juliet” I replied sarcastically.
“I asked you a question” she replied as she stared at me with hate-filled eyes.
“Out” I said simply.
“You have to work today,” she said to me as if I didn’t know. When didn’t I work?
“Don’t I always” I replied under my breath.
“Excuse you,” she said with attitude.
“Bye Juliet” I replied and walked out the door.
I got into my car and drove away from my ‘house’ if that’s what you’d like to call it. I got onto 826 north (a highway in Miami). As I boarded the highway there was a hug billboard that read: FOLLOW YOUR DREAMS. I thought about the dream I had last night with Lucas. I hoped everything that happened last night was a dream but unfortunately, it wasn’t. Lucas was truly dead and I was alone once again. I switched of 826 north and got on to I95 south; the highway that led to the beach. The whole drive to Joe’s was bizarre. I kept seeing signs that either said: “Follow you dreams” or “Remember your dreams” and even one that said, “Remember to keep your promises”. It was really strange. Those signs were all things that Lucas had said in my dream. Could it be that Lucas was trying to send me a message or something? I arrived at the Starbucks to see Joe sitting in the window. I took one good cleansing breath and then I walked in.
“Hey Joe” I said as I approached the table.
“Wow” he said as he stood up to greet me. “It really is you”
“Yea and it really is you” I replied.
“Have a seat,” he said as he pulled out my chair for me.
“Thanks” I said as I took a seat.
“I’m sorry about last night. I was just dumbstruck and I wasn’t thinking clearly. I didn’t know how to respond to that,” he explained.
“I know I understand. I was a little confused and surprised as well to find out you were the Joe I’ve been talking to for almost two years” I replied.
“When did you find out?” he asked.
“Last night” I said.
“How did you know it was me?” he sat forward in his seat and looked at me.
“Well when you started to describe me it kind of hit me and then when you said my name I automatically new and even more when you spoke about Lucas” I said as I tried to hold the tears that were trying to form in my eyes.
“I’m sorry about him. How is he?” he asked concerned as he reached for my hands.
“He died last night” I looked away as I pictured him with his eyes closed and surrounded by doctors.
“I’m really sorry!” he said as he gripped my hands tighter in his. “I really am I mean it. I may not know what it’s like to lose a best friend and your parents but from what you’ve told me it’s horrible. I wouldn’t even dream of it,” he explained.
“Don’t ever” I replied as I looked back to him. “It’s the worse feeling in the world. Last night when I saw him close his eyes” I paused as I let a couple tears escape. “I didn’t know what to do. I no longer wanted to live he was everything I had left and now he’s gone” I explained as the tears flowed more. “He’s gone and there was nothing I could’ve done to stop it. I loved him with all my heart. I was madly in love with my best friend and I never told him until it was too late. I hate myself for it,” I cried to Joe.
“Come here” he said to me as he stood up and pulled me into a hug. “I’m sorry Bella. I’m so sorry about the pain you’re feeling right now. I wish there was something I could do to make it go away” he hugged me tightly.
“Why do I have to suffer so much? What have I done to deserve so much pain and agony? Why do I always have to lose the ones that I love? Why me?” I yelled through sobs. “Why?”
“Shh come on let’s get out of here and go talk somewhere else where it’s quieter” he said as he pulled away, wiped the tears, and held onto my hand.
“Okay” I agreed as I let him pull me out of Starbucks.
*JOE’S POV*
She was in love with her best friend and he’s gone. He left her alone to suffer. After we left Starbucks, we drove to the hotel and sat near the pool that led to a beautiful beach. We sat on the beach chairs and thankfully, she was calmer than before.
“I’m sorry about dumping all my problems on you” she apologized.
“That’s what I’m here for to be there for you when you need me the most” I comforted her.
“Thanks” she said as she lightly touched my hand.
“So if there’s anything you ever want to tell me or ask me don’t be afraid to do so” I assured her. “I’m here to be your friend and your listener.”
“Thank you Joe” she smiled.
“You have a beautiful smile and beautiful eyes to match it,” I said as I softly placed my hand on her cheek.
“Thank you. Lucas used to tell me that all the time” she commented as her eyes flooded with tears. “God I’m so sorry about only talking about him” she apologized.
“It’s all right I understand”
“It’s just that I miss him so much. We had many great times together here and now it’s all just a memory I’ll have to remember always. We were going to go to college together in UCLA and we were going to be together forever but I never told him that last part. I never got a chance to tell him how in love I was with him until he was dying,” she cried.
“I wish I could make the pain go away” I wiped the tears.
“But let’s stop talking about him before I run out of tears” she half-smiled. “Did you know that he was Ariel’s older brother?”
*beep* are you serious?” I asked concerned and she nodded. “Omg poor girl she must be devastated”
“I don’t know I haven’t spoken to her since I left the hospital last night” she replied.
“Oh”
“But yeah do you remember on March 24, 2007 you said and I quote ‘To love is to risk not being loved in return. To hope is to risk pain. To try is to risk failure, but risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing’
What did you mean?” she asked.
“I said it referring to you,” I answered.
“Me? Why me?”
“You say you wanted to be a rockstar and a writer but yet you’re still here doing all the dirty work for your aunt and cousins. What I meant by that was that if you never try to do the things you want to accomplish then you’ll never get anywhere. Accomplished dreams happen after risks are taken,” I explained.
“Oh it makes sense now” she replied.
“My turn on January 12, 2008 you wrote ‘It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, but what is the most painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let the person know how you feel’.” I replied. “Who were you referring to? Or what?”
“I was talking about Lucas and me. About three years ago, when we were in our junior year in high school he insisted that I learn to ride a Jet Ski so I finally gave in. After falling about six times, I gave up, he kissed me for the first time in our whole lives of being friends, and I knew instantly that he was the one for me but I was too afraid to say anything about it. And the quote is true because I loved him but I never had the guts to tell him how I felt and now he’s dead and that is the worst pain of all” she explained.
I did hear right. Is was Isabella so that meant that my brother Kevin...no...It couldn’t be I was in love with her. I knew her before anyone did. I’ve loved her longer and I know her in a way no one else does except maybe Lucas but still. Kevin and I were both in love with the same person. What are we going to do now?
IM For: rockstar550
liveformusic:Hey Bella! =D what's up?
rockstar550:Hey Joe! I can’t really talk right now something came up and I have to leave asap
liveformusic:Is everything ok?
rockstar550:Remember my best friend Lucas
liveformusic:Yea
rockstar550:He was coming down to Miami to visit me for thanksgiving and his plane crashed he’s in the hospital and he might not make it through the night
liveformusic:Omg Isabella I'm so sorry
rockstar550:It’s not your fault things like this just always seem to happen to me but I gotta go I want to be with him the last few minutes.
liveformusic:Everythings going to be ok I promise
rockstar550:No it won’t now I really have to go
liveformusic:I'm taking the next plane out to Miami
liveformusic:I’m here
liveformusic: Can we please meet somewhere? I came to be here for you! I’m sorry about what’s going on! I think I sort of just met you I’m not sure though so can we please meet tomorrow somewhere I need to know for sure. IM me whenever you get this message.
He had sent me three messages since I left last night.
rockstar550:I really appreciate what you did. Coming all the way out here
liveformusic:I just wanted to be there for you
rockstar550:Thanks
liveformusic:Your welcome and I think it’s about time we meet it’s been almost two years since we met
rockstar550:Yea I agree
liveformusic:Even though I think we sort of did
rockstar550:Yea me too but I have this strange feeling it was all a dream
liveformusic:Me2
rockstar550:So where do you want to meet?
liveformusic:There’s a Starbucks near where I’m staying do you think you could meet me there
rockstar550:Yea sure
liveformusic:Well I’m staying at the Hilton Hotel in Miami Beach do you know where that’s at?
rockstar550:Yea I’ll be there in about half an hour
liveformusic:Ok see you then
rockstar550:Hey Joe?
liveformusic:Yea Isabella
rockstar550:How come you never told me you were Joe Jonas?
liveformusic:Uh... I’ll see you in a bit
He replied and with that, he signed off.
I went to the bathroom, showered, and got dressed and then I decided to head out to meet Joe. As I walked passed the living room and passed the kitchen I heard a voice I really didn’t feel like listening to right now.
“Where are you going?” her snotty annoying voice asked.
“Why good morning to you too Juliet” I replied sarcastically.
“I asked you a question” she replied as she stared at me with hate-filled eyes.
“Out” I said simply.
“You have to work today,” she said to me as if I didn’t know. When didn’t I work?
“Don’t I always” I replied under my breath.
“Excuse you,” she said with attitude.
“Bye Juliet” I replied and walked out the door.
I got into my car and drove away from my ‘house’ if that’s what you’d like to call it. I got onto 826 north (a highway in Miami). As I boarded the highway there was a hug billboard that read: FOLLOW YOUR DREAMS. I thought about the dream I had last night with Lucas. I hoped everything that happened last night was a dream but unfortunately, it wasn’t. Lucas was truly dead and I was alone once again. I switched of 826 north and got on to I95 south; the highway that led to the beach. The whole drive to Joe’s was bizarre. I kept seeing signs that either said: “Follow you dreams” or “Remember your dreams” and even one that said, “Remember to keep your promises”. It was really strange. Those signs were all things that Lucas had said in my dream. Could it be that Lucas was trying to send me a message or something? I arrived at the Starbucks to see Joe sitting in the window. I took one good cleansing breath and then I walked in.
“Hey Joe” I said as I approached the table.
“Wow” he said as he stood up to greet me. “It really is you”
“Yea and it really is you” I replied.
“Have a seat,” he said as he pulled out my chair for me.
“Thanks” I said as I took a seat.
“I’m sorry about last night. I was just dumbstruck and I wasn’t thinking clearly. I didn’t know how to respond to that,” he explained.
“I know I understand. I was a little confused and surprised as well to find out you were the Joe I’ve been talking to for almost two years” I replied.
“When did you find out?” he asked.
“Last night” I said.
“How did you know it was me?” he sat forward in his seat and looked at me.
“Well when you started to describe me it kind of hit me and then when you said my name I automatically new and even more when you spoke about Lucas” I said as I tried to hold the tears that were trying to form in my eyes.
“I’m sorry about him. How is he?” he asked concerned as he reached for my hands.
“He died last night” I looked away as I pictured him with his eyes closed and surrounded by doctors.
“I’m really sorry!” he said as he gripped my hands tighter in his. “I really am I mean it. I may not know what it’s like to lose a best friend and your parents but from what you’ve told me it’s horrible. I wouldn’t even dream of it,” he explained.
“Don’t ever” I replied as I looked back to him. “It’s the worse feeling in the world. Last night when I saw him close his eyes” I paused as I let a couple tears escape. “I didn’t know what to do. I no longer wanted to live he was everything I had left and now he’s gone” I explained as the tears flowed more. “He’s gone and there was nothing I could’ve done to stop it. I loved him with all my heart. I was madly in love with my best friend and I never told him until it was too late. I hate myself for it,” I cried to Joe.
“Come here” he said to me as he stood up and pulled me into a hug. “I’m sorry Bella. I’m so sorry about the pain you’re feeling right now. I wish there was something I could do to make it go away” he hugged me tightly.
“Why do I have to suffer so much? What have I done to deserve so much pain and agony? Why do I always have to lose the ones that I love? Why me?” I yelled through sobs. “Why?”
“Shh come on let’s get out of here and go talk somewhere else where it’s quieter” he said as he pulled away, wiped the tears, and held onto my hand.
“Okay” I agreed as I let him pull me out of Starbucks.
*JOE’S POV*
She was in love with her best friend and he’s gone. He left her alone to suffer. After we left Starbucks, we drove to the hotel and sat near the pool that led to a beautiful beach. We sat on the beach chairs and thankfully, she was calmer than before.
“I’m sorry about dumping all my problems on you” she apologized.
“That’s what I’m here for to be there for you when you need me the most” I comforted her.
“Thanks” she said as she lightly touched my hand.
“So if there’s anything you ever want to tell me or ask me don’t be afraid to do so” I assured her. “I’m here to be your friend and your listener.”
“Thank you Joe” she smiled.
“You have a beautiful smile and beautiful eyes to match it,” I said as I softly placed my hand on her cheek.
“Thank you. Lucas used to tell me that all the time” she commented as her eyes flooded with tears. “God I’m so sorry about only talking about him” she apologized.
“It’s all right I understand”
“It’s just that I miss him so much. We had many great times together here and now it’s all just a memory I’ll have to remember always. We were going to go to college together in UCLA and we were going to be together forever but I never told him that last part. I never got a chance to tell him how in love I was with him until he was dying,” she cried.
“I wish I could make the pain go away” I wiped the tears.
“But let’s stop talking about him before I run out of tears” she half-smiled. “Did you know that he was Ariel’s older brother?”
*beep* are you serious?” I asked concerned and she nodded. “Omg poor girl she must be devastated”
“I don’t know I haven’t spoken to her since I left the hospital last night” she replied.
“Oh”
“But yeah do you remember on March 24, 2007 you said and I quote ‘To love is to risk not being loved in return. To hope is to risk pain. To try is to risk failure, but risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing’
What did you mean?” she asked.
“I said it referring to you,” I answered.
“Me? Why me?”
“You say you wanted to be a rockstar and a writer but yet you’re still here doing all the dirty work for your aunt and cousins. What I meant by that was that if you never try to do the things you want to accomplish then you’ll never get anywhere. Accomplished dreams happen after risks are taken,” I explained.
“Oh it makes sense now” she replied.
“My turn on January 12, 2008 you wrote ‘It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, but what is the most painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let the person know how you feel’.” I replied. “Who were you referring to? Or what?”
“I was talking about Lucas and me. About three years ago, when we were in our junior year in high school he insisted that I learn to ride a Jet Ski so I finally gave in. After falling about six times, I gave up, he kissed me for the first time in our whole lives of being friends, and I knew instantly that he was the one for me but I was too afraid to say anything about it. And the quote is true because I loved him but I never had the guts to tell him how I felt and now he’s dead and that is the worst pain of all” she explained.
I did hear right. Is was Isabella so that meant that my brother Kevin...no...It couldn’t be I was in love with her. I knew her before anyone did. I’ve loved her longer and I know her in a way no one else does except maybe Lucas but still. Kevin and I were both in love with the same person. What are we going to do now?
CHAPTER 21:
“Okay I’m ready let’s get going,” Kevin said as he grabbed his keys and walked to the door.
“Um” I looked at Joe who was speechless. “Okay nice to meet you Joe” I said as I got up and walked out the door.
*JOE’S POV*
“Right here” she said to me and I couldn’t believe it.
Did I hear right? Did she just say she was Isabella? It made sense Is to Isabella why didn’t I figure that one out? She lived in Miami her whole life as well Isabella did. I needed to make sure it was true I needed to speak to her. I looked up out of my speechless trance to see her walking out the door behind Kevin.
“Wait” I yelled but she had already closed the door.
I opened AIM and quickly sent her a brief message.
IM For: rockstar550
liveformusic:Can we please meet somewhere? I came to be here for you! I’m sorry about what’s going on! I think I sort of just met you I’m not sure though so can we please meet tomorrow somewhere I need to know for sure. IM me whenever you get this message.
*KEVIN’S POV*
We walked to my car and she seemed somewhat strange. She looked like if she was thinking to hard about something but I couldn’t quite tell what. As we got into the car, I asked her.
“Something wrong?” I asked. “You seemed kind of bothered or something when I came out of the bathroom. Did Joe do something or tell you something?”
“Huh? No I’m fine I’m just a little tired and sad that’s all,” she explained.
“Is everything okay?” I asked worriedly because she did look very sad now that I come to look at her.
“My best friend died today,” she said in a low tone and when she looked up at me, I could see the tears forming in her eyes.
“Is I’m so sorry” I apologized to her as a single tear dropped from her beautiful green eyes.
“Thanks but I don’t want to talk about it anymore” she looked out her window. “Just take me back to my car so that I could go home please,” she asked as she looked back at me.
“Yea sure” I replied as we pulled out of the parking lot and headed back to the nearby bridge.
That would explain why she was there. That also explained why she was attempting suicide. Minutes later, we arrived at the bridge and to her car.
“Thank you for saving my life” she said as she opened her door. “It was really nice seeing you again”
“Same here Is” I replied. “Hopefully I see you around again I’ll be in town for a couple days,” I added.
“Yea hopefully” she said sadly.
“Well here’s my number,” I said as I wrote it on a little paper and handed it to her. “Call if you need anything” I added.
“Okay thanks again,” she said and then she climbed out and closed the door behind her.
She slowly climbed into her car and drove away in the opposite direction. I thought about following her to make sure she got home safe. Also to make sure she didn’t try killing herself again but something told me she was going to be just fine. I turned around and headed back to the hotel. When I arrived, Joe was laying down in one of the beds just staring at the computer screen. I looked at my watch to see that it was almost 11pm.
“Still no message from her?” I asked as I made my way to the bathroom to brush my teeth.
“No still nothing but I have this strange feeling that I already found her” he replied which confused me.
“What do you mean?” I asked as I poked my head out of the bathroom.
“Her name is Isabella and she lives here in Miami,” he explained.
“Okay and?” I asked as I emerged from the bathroom and began to take off my pants and shirt so that I could go to sleep in my boxers.
“Nothing let’s just leave it at that” he said as he closed the laptop and slid under his sheets.
“You’re weird sometimes you know that Joseph?” I said to him as I climbed under my sheets.
“I know Kevin I know,” he said as he placed the laptop on the table between our beds and turned out the lamp on his side.
“Goodnight” I replied as I reached to turn out the lamp on my side.
“Goodnight” he replied.
*ISABELLA’S POV*
I arrived home half an hour after I left the bridge. I snuck into my house and into my basement bedroom. My computer monitor was off but the computer itself was still turned on. I threw myself onto my bed and just looked up at the ceiling as I thought about today’s events. What a great thanksgiving don’t you think? The day that you’re supposed to give thanks for your family (which I don’t have except Edward), for your friends and for everything you have (which is nothing). Well today for me I can’t give thanks for anything because I don’t have anything to call mine or anything to be thankful for. My family is dead and my friends well my best friend died on the day I was supposed to be thankful for him being healthy and alive. What a horrible Thanksgiving! I can only imagine what the Davis’ are going through right now. Mr. and Mrs. Davis just lost their only son. The first one of the family to go off to college full scholarship because he was so smart and he died at the age of 19 just a month before his 20th birthday. Ariel is in her senior year in high school. It’s supposed to be the best year of your life and then you get the news that your only brother is dying and then that he’s dead. Peyton her life is going great. She has a boyfriend who treats her like if she were the only thing in his world. She has loving parents and siblings. She’s smart and beautiful and then her big brother passes away. It’s strange how life works don’t you think? How bad things tend to happen to the good people and the bad ones run around healthy as ever. I sat up, walked over to my dresser, and picked up a frame that contained a photo of my parents and me when I was about seven. I was happy then when they were alive. It was taken on my birthday when we all went to the beach together as a family my whole family including my cousins and the Davis’. That’s what’s good about Miami you can always go to the beach even on Halloween. It was the last birthday I ever spent with them. They died a couple months before my eighth birthday and it’s something I’ll never forget.
“Oh how I wish you guys were here,” I whispered through tears. “How bad I need you to help me get through this pain I’m feeling, this confusion. Everything hurts especially right here” I said as I placed my hand on my heart. “Every night I ask myself why you guys and not me. Why didn’t I die along with you two?”
“Because you have dreams” I heard someone say. “You’re going to do great things in life just follow your dreams”
“Who’s there?” I asked.
“Remember to follow your dreams you promised” the voice said and I instantly recognized it.
“Lucas” I asked to the empty air around me.
“One day you’ll understand,” he whispered into my ear as he appeared beside me.
“Lucas” I repeated shocked.
“Follow your dreams and stop asking so many questions,” he said as he held my hands in his.
“I promised and I will. I’m sorry about everything,” I yelled as more tears flowed.
“You have nothing to be sorry for” he assured me. “Always and forever” he whispered as he kissed my forehead and began to fade.
“No wait please don’t go I’m sorry for not telling you sooner. I love you Lucas and I always have, since the first time you kissed me I knew, but I was afraid. I’m sorry Lucas I’m sorry please don’t go” he was gone. “Please!” I begged once more as my legs gave out and I buckled to the floor and cried my heart out. “I’m sorry!”
Then I woke up and I was still lying on my bed looking up at the ceiling. I sat up and looked at the photo frame that was sitting on my dresser. I must’ve fallen asleep.
“Um” I looked at Joe who was speechless. “Okay nice to meet you Joe” I said as I got up and walked out the door.
*JOE’S POV*
“Right here” she said to me and I couldn’t believe it.
Did I hear right? Did she just say she was Isabella? It made sense Is to Isabella why didn’t I figure that one out? She lived in Miami her whole life as well Isabella did. I needed to make sure it was true I needed to speak to her. I looked up out of my speechless trance to see her walking out the door behind Kevin.
“Wait” I yelled but she had already closed the door.
I opened AIM and quickly sent her a brief message.
IM For: rockstar550
liveformusic:Can we please meet somewhere? I came to be here for you! I’m sorry about what’s going on! I think I sort of just met you I’m not sure though so can we please meet tomorrow somewhere I need to know for sure. IM me whenever you get this message.
*KEVIN’S POV*
We walked to my car and she seemed somewhat strange. She looked like if she was thinking to hard about something but I couldn’t quite tell what. As we got into the car, I asked her.
“Something wrong?” I asked. “You seemed kind of bothered or something when I came out of the bathroom. Did Joe do something or tell you something?”
“Huh? No I’m fine I’m just a little tired and sad that’s all,” she explained.
“Is everything okay?” I asked worriedly because she did look very sad now that I come to look at her.
“My best friend died today,” she said in a low tone and when she looked up at me, I could see the tears forming in her eyes.
“Is I’m so sorry” I apologized to her as a single tear dropped from her beautiful green eyes.
“Thanks but I don’t want to talk about it anymore” she looked out her window. “Just take me back to my car so that I could go home please,” she asked as she looked back at me.
“Yea sure” I replied as we pulled out of the parking lot and headed back to the nearby bridge.
That would explain why she was there. That also explained why she was attempting suicide. Minutes later, we arrived at the bridge and to her car.
“Thank you for saving my life” she said as she opened her door. “It was really nice seeing you again”
“Same here Is” I replied. “Hopefully I see you around again I’ll be in town for a couple days,” I added.
“Yea hopefully” she said sadly.
“Well here’s my number,” I said as I wrote it on a little paper and handed it to her. “Call if you need anything” I added.
“Okay thanks again,” she said and then she climbed out and closed the door behind her.
She slowly climbed into her car and drove away in the opposite direction. I thought about following her to make sure she got home safe. Also to make sure she didn’t try killing herself again but something told me she was going to be just fine. I turned around and headed back to the hotel. When I arrived, Joe was laying down in one of the beds just staring at the computer screen. I looked at my watch to see that it was almost 11pm.
“Still no message from her?” I asked as I made my way to the bathroom to brush my teeth.
“No still nothing but I have this strange feeling that I already found her” he replied which confused me.
“What do you mean?” I asked as I poked my head out of the bathroom.
“Her name is Isabella and she lives here in Miami,” he explained.
“Okay and?” I asked as I emerged from the bathroom and began to take off my pants and shirt so that I could go to sleep in my boxers.
“Nothing let’s just leave it at that” he said as he closed the laptop and slid under his sheets.
“You’re weird sometimes you know that Joseph?” I said to him as I climbed under my sheets.
“I know Kevin I know,” he said as he placed the laptop on the table between our beds and turned out the lamp on his side.
“Goodnight” I replied as I reached to turn out the lamp on my side.
“Goodnight” he replied.
*ISABELLA’S POV*
I arrived home half an hour after I left the bridge. I snuck into my house and into my basement bedroom. My computer monitor was off but the computer itself was still turned on. I threw myself onto my bed and just looked up at the ceiling as I thought about today’s events. What a great thanksgiving don’t you think? The day that you’re supposed to give thanks for your family (which I don’t have except Edward), for your friends and for everything you have (which is nothing). Well today for me I can’t give thanks for anything because I don’t have anything to call mine or anything to be thankful for. My family is dead and my friends well my best friend died on the day I was supposed to be thankful for him being healthy and alive. What a horrible Thanksgiving! I can only imagine what the Davis’ are going through right now. Mr. and Mrs. Davis just lost their only son. The first one of the family to go off to college full scholarship because he was so smart and he died at the age of 19 just a month before his 20th birthday. Ariel is in her senior year in high school. It’s supposed to be the best year of your life and then you get the news that your only brother is dying and then that he’s dead. Peyton her life is going great. She has a boyfriend who treats her like if she were the only thing in his world. She has loving parents and siblings. She’s smart and beautiful and then her big brother passes away. It’s strange how life works don’t you think? How bad things tend to happen to the good people and the bad ones run around healthy as ever. I sat up, walked over to my dresser, and picked up a frame that contained a photo of my parents and me when I was about seven. I was happy then when they were alive. It was taken on my birthday when we all went to the beach together as a family my whole family including my cousins and the Davis’. That’s what’s good about Miami you can always go to the beach even on Halloween. It was the last birthday I ever spent with them. They died a couple months before my eighth birthday and it’s something I’ll never forget.
“Oh how I wish you guys were here,” I whispered through tears. “How bad I need you to help me get through this pain I’m feeling, this confusion. Everything hurts especially right here” I said as I placed my hand on my heart. “Every night I ask myself why you guys and not me. Why didn’t I die along with you two?”
“Because you have dreams” I heard someone say. “You’re going to do great things in life just follow your dreams”
“Who’s there?” I asked.
“Remember to follow your dreams you promised” the voice said and I instantly recognized it.
“Lucas” I asked to the empty air around me.
“One day you’ll understand,” he whispered into my ear as he appeared beside me.
“Lucas” I repeated shocked.
“Follow your dreams and stop asking so many questions,” he said as he held my hands in his.
“I promised and I will. I’m sorry about everything,” I yelled as more tears flowed.
“You have nothing to be sorry for” he assured me. “Always and forever” he whispered as he kissed my forehead and began to fade.
“No wait please don’t go I’m sorry for not telling you sooner. I love you Lucas and I always have, since the first time you kissed me I knew, but I was afraid. I’m sorry Lucas I’m sorry please don’t go” he was gone. “Please!” I begged once more as my legs gave out and I buckled to the floor and cried my heart out. “I’m sorry!”
Then I woke up and I was still lying on my bed looking up at the ceiling. I sat up and looked at the photo frame that was sitting on my dresser. I must’ve fallen asleep.
CHAPTER 20:
I turned around after the person yelled my name. It was raining so hard I couldn’t recognize the person until he spoke again.
“Don’t do this!” he yelled and I kind of recognized it but I wasn’t quite sure.
“Kevin?” I asked as I tried my best to look through the pouring raindrops.
“Please think about this,” he begged as he slowly approached me.
“Stay away” I yelled.
“Please don’t do this. Think about what it’ll do to your family” he tried to persuade.
“I don’t have any family they’re all dead,” I yelled as I pictured my parents, grandparents and then Lucas.
“You once told me that you still had an aunt and some cousins” he replied.
“Ay please like if they’ll care whether I die or not” I shot at him as my heart filled with more pain and anger.
“Yes they will please think about this you have your whole life ahead of you,” he explained.
“Of course you could say that because you have an easy life. Your future is already set and done for, it’s served on a silver platter” I shot angrily. “You don’t know me. You don’t know the things I’ve been through the things I’ve had to do to get where I am now. You don’t know what it’s like to have everyone you love taken away from you. I do and I’m tired of it happening over and over again. So just go and leave me alone,” I yelled as the tears poured with no end.
“I’m not going anywhere Is cause I know you’re better than this you’re stronger than this. I know who you really are so stop acting” he replied and I got startled. Did he know that I was Joanna omg how?
“What?” I replied a little shaky.
“You pretend to be someone you’re not. You act like you’re weak and breakable when the truth is you’re stronger and braver than anyone I know. You’re stronger than I’ll ever be”
“No I’m not,” I cried. “I’m not strong I never was and I never will be. I’m a failure to everyone”
“Come on get down from there please,” he begged as he stepped closer.
“I’m scared” I hesitated.
“Take my hand,” he said as he took another step. I turned my body completely around.
“Ah” I screamed as my leg slipped on the wetness of the rail. This is it I’m going to die for real.
“Don’t worry I got you” he yelled to me as he held onto my hand. “I promise I won’t let go” he assured me as I opened my eyes to see him reaching over the railing and holding onto my arms.
“Please don’t let go I’m sorry I don’t want to die,” I begged as I tried to climb back onto the rail.
“Come on I got you don’t worry” he yelled as he pulled me up.
“Uh” I grunted as my hand began to slip from his reach. I quickly put my foot through the rail and pushed myself up.
“One more pull” he said to me and then before I knew it I was over the rail and into his arms.
“Omg thank you” I said to him as I hugged him tightly. “I’m so stupid”
“You’re welcome now let’s get you out of this rain before you get sick” he said as he walked me to his car.
“But what about my car?” I asked him.
“We’ll leave a note and come back for it later,” he explained and I agreed. “My hotel is here like five minutes away let me take you there to get changed and then we’ll come back and get your car and you can go home,” he suggested.
“I don’t know Kevin” I hesitated.
“I won’t hurt you I promise”
“Okay fine” I accepted. “But only to change and then we come right back” I said.
“Deal” he said after he finished writing a note saying that my car ran out of gas and that we walked to the nearby gas station.
We got into his car and drove to his hotel. It was really only five minutes away or so it seemed. He was staying at the Hilton Hotel near the beach. We got off the car and walked into the lobby. Thank god, the rain had died down a bit to a simple drizzle. We got into the elevator and went up to the fifth floor. We walked down the hall and finally approached the room at the end of the left hallway. He slid his card into the slot and pushed it open. I walked in behind him and saw that the room was empty. Then the bathroom door opened.
“You’re back already?” Joe asked his brother Kevin.
“Yea and I brought someone,” he said motioning for him to look behind him. “Is, this is my brother Joe and Joe this is Is” he introduced us not knowing that we’ve already met before well kind of.
“Yeah I know who he is” I replied.
“You’re Ariel’s friend aren’t you?” he asked.
“Yea and you’re her ex boyfriend” I replied.
“Yea nice to finally meet you I’ve heard so much about you” he said sticking his hand out for me to shake. “And I don’t mean from Ariel” he whispered to me and I laughed.
“Joe!” Kevin yelled. “I heard that” he scowled his younger brother.
“Nice to meet you too” I replied as I shook his hand.
I walked more into the room and stood because I didn’t want to wet anything. Kevin walked over to a luggage and searched through it. Seconds later, he pulled out a pair of sweats and a pair of jeans along with a white t-shirt.
“Here I don’t know which one will fit you,” he said handing me the two pants. “But the shirt should fit” he said as he handed me that as well.
“Thanks” I replied as I walked towards the bathroom to change. Minutes later, I came out wearing the jeans and the white t-shirt. I handed the sweats to Kevin which e insisted I keep then he went into shower.
“Hey mind if I sit,” I asked Joe who was sitting on the bed looking at the laptop screen.
“Go ahead” he said as he moved over a little.
“What you got there? If you don’t mind me asking,” I replied.
“Oh nothing I’m just trying to find a friend,” he said simply.
“Oh you want any help?” I asked. “I’ve been living here my whole life maybe I know the person” I suggested. “Does he or she live here?” I asked.
“Yeah she lives here in Miami but I don’t know what she looks like” he replied.
“Huh?” I said confused.
“Well we met online about a year and a half ago and something terrible happened and I wanted to be there for her so I flew down here to find her but she doesn’t seem to be online” he explained.
“Oh wow” I replied then I began to think. Could it be? No that’s impossible he would’ve told me if he was Joe Jonas. But I’ve known Joe for about a year and a half and something terrible happened to me today. That’s kind of awkward but it can’t be related. “Where do you guys live?” I asked suddenly and he looked at me confused.
“California why?” he asked. Omg.
“What’s your friend’s name?” I asked.
“Isabella” he replied.
“Holy *beep* I blurted out.
“What do you know her?” he asked impatiently.
“Oh yea I know her” I replied.
“Are you close? Do you know where she’s at right now?” he asked quickly.
“We’re closer than you think. I’ve known her my whole life,” I answered as I tried to recollect my thoughts.
This was Joe the Joe from my dreams that I always wished to one-day meet. The Joe that was there for me whenever I had a bad day or whenever I just needed someone to talk to. He was right under my nose the whole time. Why didn’t I ever think about this? He was the one I was-
“Hello earth to Is,” he said waving his hand in front of my face.
“Huh what?” I asked as I shook my thoughts away.
“I was asking if you knew where she was at right now,” he explained.
“Oh she’s closer than you think,” I answered. Should I tell him?
“Where?” he asked.
“Right here” I said to him. Then the bathroom door opened and Kevin stepped out.
“Don’t do this!” he yelled and I kind of recognized it but I wasn’t quite sure.
“Kevin?” I asked as I tried my best to look through the pouring raindrops.
“Please think about this,” he begged as he slowly approached me.
“Stay away” I yelled.
“Please don’t do this. Think about what it’ll do to your family” he tried to persuade.
“I don’t have any family they’re all dead,” I yelled as I pictured my parents, grandparents and then Lucas.
“You once told me that you still had an aunt and some cousins” he replied.
“Ay please like if they’ll care whether I die or not” I shot at him as my heart filled with more pain and anger.
“Yes they will please think about this you have your whole life ahead of you,” he explained.
“Of course you could say that because you have an easy life. Your future is already set and done for, it’s served on a silver platter” I shot angrily. “You don’t know me. You don’t know the things I’ve been through the things I’ve had to do to get where I am now. You don’t know what it’s like to have everyone you love taken away from you. I do and I’m tired of it happening over and over again. So just go and leave me alone,” I yelled as the tears poured with no end.
“I’m not going anywhere Is cause I know you’re better than this you’re stronger than this. I know who you really are so stop acting” he replied and I got startled. Did he know that I was Joanna omg how?
“What?” I replied a little shaky.
“You pretend to be someone you’re not. You act like you’re weak and breakable when the truth is you’re stronger and braver than anyone I know. You’re stronger than I’ll ever be”
“No I’m not,” I cried. “I’m not strong I never was and I never will be. I’m a failure to everyone”
“Come on get down from there please,” he begged as he stepped closer.
“I’m scared” I hesitated.
“Take my hand,” he said as he took another step. I turned my body completely around.
“Ah” I screamed as my leg slipped on the wetness of the rail. This is it I’m going to die for real.
“Don’t worry I got you” he yelled to me as he held onto my hand. “I promise I won’t let go” he assured me as I opened my eyes to see him reaching over the railing and holding onto my arms.
“Please don’t let go I’m sorry I don’t want to die,” I begged as I tried to climb back onto the rail.
“Come on I got you don’t worry” he yelled as he pulled me up.
“Uh” I grunted as my hand began to slip from his reach. I quickly put my foot through the rail and pushed myself up.
“One more pull” he said to me and then before I knew it I was over the rail and into his arms.
“Omg thank you” I said to him as I hugged him tightly. “I’m so stupid”
“You’re welcome now let’s get you out of this rain before you get sick” he said as he walked me to his car.
“But what about my car?” I asked him.
“We’ll leave a note and come back for it later,” he explained and I agreed. “My hotel is here like five minutes away let me take you there to get changed and then we’ll come back and get your car and you can go home,” he suggested.
“I don’t know Kevin” I hesitated.
“I won’t hurt you I promise”
“Okay fine” I accepted. “But only to change and then we come right back” I said.
“Deal” he said after he finished writing a note saying that my car ran out of gas and that we walked to the nearby gas station.
We got into his car and drove to his hotel. It was really only five minutes away or so it seemed. He was staying at the Hilton Hotel near the beach. We got off the car and walked into the lobby. Thank god, the rain had died down a bit to a simple drizzle. We got into the elevator and went up to the fifth floor. We walked down the hall and finally approached the room at the end of the left hallway. He slid his card into the slot and pushed it open. I walked in behind him and saw that the room was empty. Then the bathroom door opened.
“You’re back already?” Joe asked his brother Kevin.
“Yea and I brought someone,” he said motioning for him to look behind him. “Is, this is my brother Joe and Joe this is Is” he introduced us not knowing that we’ve already met before well kind of.
“Yeah I know who he is” I replied.
“You’re Ariel’s friend aren’t you?” he asked.
“Yea and you’re her ex boyfriend” I replied.
“Yea nice to finally meet you I’ve heard so much about you” he said sticking his hand out for me to shake. “And I don’t mean from Ariel” he whispered to me and I laughed.
“Joe!” Kevin yelled. “I heard that” he scowled his younger brother.
“Nice to meet you too” I replied as I shook his hand.
I walked more into the room and stood because I didn’t want to wet anything. Kevin walked over to a luggage and searched through it. Seconds later, he pulled out a pair of sweats and a pair of jeans along with a white t-shirt.
“Here I don’t know which one will fit you,” he said handing me the two pants. “But the shirt should fit” he said as he handed me that as well.
“Thanks” I replied as I walked towards the bathroom to change. Minutes later, I came out wearing the jeans and the white t-shirt. I handed the sweats to Kevin which e insisted I keep then he went into shower.
“Hey mind if I sit,” I asked Joe who was sitting on the bed looking at the laptop screen.
“Go ahead” he said as he moved over a little.
“What you got there? If you don’t mind me asking,” I replied.
“Oh nothing I’m just trying to find a friend,” he said simply.
“Oh you want any help?” I asked. “I’ve been living here my whole life maybe I know the person” I suggested. “Does he or she live here?” I asked.
“Yeah she lives here in Miami but I don’t know what she looks like” he replied.
“Huh?” I said confused.
“Well we met online about a year and a half ago and something terrible happened and I wanted to be there for her so I flew down here to find her but she doesn’t seem to be online” he explained.
“Oh wow” I replied then I began to think. Could it be? No that’s impossible he would’ve told me if he was Joe Jonas. But I’ve known Joe for about a year and a half and something terrible happened to me today. That’s kind of awkward but it can’t be related. “Where do you guys live?” I asked suddenly and he looked at me confused.
“California why?” he asked. Omg.
“What’s your friend’s name?” I asked.
“Isabella” he replied.
“Holy *beep* I blurted out.
“What do you know her?” he asked impatiently.
“Oh yea I know her” I replied.
“Are you close? Do you know where she’s at right now?” he asked quickly.
“We’re closer than you think. I’ve known her my whole life,” I answered as I tried to recollect my thoughts.
This was Joe the Joe from my dreams that I always wished to one-day meet. The Joe that was there for me whenever I had a bad day or whenever I just needed someone to talk to. He was right under my nose the whole time. Why didn’t I ever think about this? He was the one I was-
“Hello earth to Is,” he said waving his hand in front of my face.
“Huh what?” I asked as I shook my thoughts away.
“I was asking if you knew where she was at right now,” he explained.
“Oh she’s closer than you think,” I answered. Should I tell him?
“Where?” he asked.
“Right here” I said to him. Then the bathroom door opened and Kevin stepped out.
CHAPTER 19:
*ISABELLA’S POV*
I drove to the hospital as fast as I could’ve. Tears poured down my face like the rain that was pouring outside my window. My best friend was dying and there was nothing I could do to help him. Everyone I love dies it’s just the way it is. I’m bad luck. I arrived at the hospital and quickly parked in the parking garage. I ran as fast as possible into the emergency room. I quickly scanned the room for Ariel or Peyton or their parents but there was no one in sight. I walked up to the nurse’s desk and asked her.
“Excuse me miss can you please tell me where I can find Lucas Davis?” I asked the nurse sitting behind the desk.
“Lucas Davis” she said to herself as she searched through the computer that was sitting on her desk in front of her. “Ah yes Lucas Davis. He’s in the intensive care unit” she replied.
“How do I get there?” I asked.
“The ICU is upstairs. Take this elevator right here and go up to the fourth floor then make a right and then a left at the first hallway. It’s all the way at the end” she explained.
“Thank you very much” I replied before I ran to the elevator.
Once I finally made it upstairs, I followed the directions exactly the way the nurse explained to me. At the end of the hallway, there was a sign that read: “ICU Waiting Room”. It was a big open room at the end of the hallway and there were two other hallways there. I immediately saw Peyton leaning on Ariel’s shoulder crying as they sat in the waiting room.
“Ariel!” I yelled to her and they looked up at me.
“Is!” she yelled back as she got up and ran to hug me.
“How is he?” I asked as she began to cry on my shoulder.
“He’s not going to make it Is! My brother’s dying. He’s abandoning us,” she said between sobs. “My brother’s dying,” she repeated again in a low tone as she broke don hysterically.
“Can I see him please?” I asked as we pulled away.
“Yea sure I think he’s been waiting for you, you know to go away,” she said as she wiped the tears.
“I can’t believe this,” I said to myself as she walked me to the room.
“Mom um Isabella’s here,” she said as we entered Lucas’ room.
“Isabella” Mrs. Davis said as she engulfed me in the biggest hug.
She looked like a complete mess. Her eyes were blood shot red from all the crying. As she pulled away, I looked over to the bed to see Lucas wrapped in bandages from his neck down. He looked so helpless. He wasn’t the happy boy I knew that always found a way around the bad things. His face was cut up with scratches. I walked over to him and laid my hand on his. He looked peaceful and calm even though you could tell the pain he was going through deep down inside.
“We’ll leave you two alone,” Mrs. Davis said to me.
“Thank you Mrs. Davis” I replied to her as she headed for the door behind Ariel.
“Look at you Lucas. What happened to you? What happened to the boy that never let anything keep him on his feet? You were always the stronger, braver one and now look. You’re in a hospital dying and to top it all off you’re killing me and your family. You should look at our mom she’s a complete mess. And your sisters they’re out there crying their life out for you. Stop being so selfish! Think about the ones you care about and how much you’re hurting them right now. Please wake up Lucas don’t do this to me please,” I begged as I laid my head on his hand and cried. “I need you Luke I need you! You’re the one who gave me strength when my parents died and I need you more than ever now! I need you to help me move on with my life. Without you there’s no point in living anymore” I cried hysterically. “You’re all I have left”
“Don’t. Say. That” I heard a voice and I looked up to see him moving his lips. “Don’t say that I’m all you have left,” he added and then he squeezed my hand. “I love you Isabella. I always have and I always will”
“I love you too Luke I was just too afraid to admit it. I love you with all my heart and I know that now” I replied.
“You always have” he replied.
“Please just get up and get better. We could be together this time I promise. Things will get better.”
“I know they will,” he said as his eyes flew open. “You need to stand up on your own two feet Isabella without me,” he added.
“But I can’t Luke I need you to be with me. I love you and I can’t be without you. You’ve always been the love of my life and I need you now more than ever” I replied as tears fell.
“Don’t give up your dream,” he said.
“Ariel!” I called as loud as possible.
“One day you’ll be the great rockstar I always knew you’d be” he whispered as he pulled my hand to his lips and kissed it.
“What is it?” Ariel said as she ran in with her mom and sister behind. “Omg” she said as her mouth flew open.
“Come closer Is” he said to me and I did. He softly put his hand on my face.
“I will always love you,” he said to me as he pulled me into a kiss on the lips. “Always and forever” he added.
“So will I Luke. Forever and always” I replied as I kissed him again.
“Promise me something,” he said as I pulled away.
“Anything”
“No matter what obstacles you over come in life you will always follow your dreams” He said.
“I promise now please stop talking as if you’re going to die cause you’re not. You can’t. You promised you’d always be there,” I reminded him.
“And I will” he said “In here” he said as he laid his hand on my heart.
“Always and forever” he whispered and then he closed his eyes.
“Forever and always” I replied.
*BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP* the line on the machine went dead.
*JOE’S POV*
We were boarding the private jet my brother called in after I explained to him Isabella’s situation. He agreed to help me when he realized how much I loved this girl.
I didn’t even know how much I loved this girl until he pointed it out to me. We quickly boarded the jet and it took off instantly. Instead of the five-hour flight from L.A. to Miami, it took us only two and half hours. When we arrived, Kevin rented a car and we found a hotel near the beach. As soon as we checked into our room, I opened up my laptop and signed onto AIM. She still wasn’t back. She still hadn’t replied to my message.
IM For: rockstar550
liveformusic:I’m here
I wrote and then I sat back and waited.
“I’m going to step out for a bit call if anything,” Kevin said as he walked to the door. “Do you need anything?” he asked.
“No I’m good I’m just going to sit here and wait for a reply,” I answered.
“Everything’s going to be alright little bro you’ll see” he said and then he walked out the room.
The only thing left to do was wait.
*ISABELLA’S POV*
“No Lucas!” I yelled. “Please don’t leave me,” I begged. “Come back I need you please” I said as I squeezed his hands.
“My baby!” I heard Mrs. Davis yell as she ran to his side.
The nurses ran in and so did the doctors. I stepped away from him and let his hand fall limp. All the noise and the crying and yelling went silent. I could see them yelling and screaming but I couldn’t hear anything. Everything was mute. Ariel and Peyton were hugging each other as they cried for the loss of their brother. I silently walked out of the room. My face was expressionless and no tears were spilling. I walked out of the room, punched the wall with full force, and cried a bit. I regained my posture and then peeked back into the room to see that everything was real. It wasn’t a dream. Lucas was gone. I turned around and ran. I ran to the nearest staircase I found. I flew down the steps and out the door and ran towards my car in the garage. I jumped in started the engine and drove away as fast as possible. I didn’t know where I was headed I just wanted to go far away from all the pain. I ended up by the beach. I killed the engine, stepped out of the car, and slowly walked onto the sand. It was the same beach my parents used to always bring me to when I was a child and the same beach I used to visit with Lucas when we were in High school. I walked over to the rocks my dad and I used to fish from. I picked up pebbles and began to throw them into the water as I remembered all the good times I used to have there with my family and my only love. I pictured my parents chasing me up and down these sands. I pictured Lucas’ gorgeous smile and his cheerful laugh that day he tried to teach me to ride a Jet Ski but I kept falling off. It was one of the best days of my life since my parents died.
*FLASHBACK*
“I’m never going to get this Luke just give up already,” I said angrily as I climbed back onto the Jet Ski after falling six times before.
“Yea you will just be patient,” he said as he tried to contain his laughter.
“It’s not funny” I replied.
“Yea it is you should’ve seen your face you looked so funny” he replied as he laughed at me.
“That’s it take me back to shore I’m done learning” I answered as I pouted.
“Did I ever tell you that you look cute when you’re mad?” he said as he looked down onto my face.
“No now let’s go” I replied.
“Especially when you pout” he added and I just looked up at him. “You have the most beautiful eyes I’ve ever seen,” he said as he put his hand softly on my cheek.
We were in a daze trapped in each other’s eyes for a while. Then he looked down at my lips and began to move in. I moved an inch closer and then his lips softly touched mine. The feeling he gave me was so indescribable. The hairs on the back of my neck stood up and then he slowly pulled back and looked at me. This time I moved in first and he moved forward, put his hand behind my head, and pulled me into a passionate kiss. My heart began to pound uncontrollably fast. It was the greatest feeling until we both fell back off the Jet Ski and into the ocean.
“Ha ha” he began to laugh that cheerful laugh I loved so much.
“You jerk let’s get back to shore please” I smacked him playfully.
*PRESENT*
It was the best day of my life. I never told him how I felt that day and he never tried to kiss me again. But I knew that I was in love with him since that day, since that kiss. I cried wishing I would’ve told him how I felt sooner. None of this would’ve happened. We would’ve been together since the beginning. I looked up to notice that there was a bridge. I can’t live without him. I jumped into the car and drove to the bridge. It began to rain again. There was thunder and lightning as the rain poured down. I stopped the car once I reached the bridge. I didn’t even bother turning it off I just jumped out and left the car open. I walked over to the bridge and climbed onto the rail.
“Why god? Why do these things have to happen to me?” I yelled to the sky. “Lucas I’m so sorry. I love you I always have and now it’s too late because you’re gone.” I cried. “You’re gone,” I repeated. “Why god? Why did you take him from me? He was all I had left. I can’t be without you the pain is just too much” I said as I prepared to jump from the bridge into the cold ocean current. “Forever and always” I whispered.
“Is.” I heard a voice yell and I turned around. “Don’t do this!”
I drove to the hospital as fast as I could’ve. Tears poured down my face like the rain that was pouring outside my window. My best friend was dying and there was nothing I could do to help him. Everyone I love dies it’s just the way it is. I’m bad luck. I arrived at the hospital and quickly parked in the parking garage. I ran as fast as possible into the emergency room. I quickly scanned the room for Ariel or Peyton or their parents but there was no one in sight. I walked up to the nurse’s desk and asked her.
“Excuse me miss can you please tell me where I can find Lucas Davis?” I asked the nurse sitting behind the desk.
“Lucas Davis” she said to herself as she searched through the computer that was sitting on her desk in front of her. “Ah yes Lucas Davis. He’s in the intensive care unit” she replied.
“How do I get there?” I asked.
“The ICU is upstairs. Take this elevator right here and go up to the fourth floor then make a right and then a left at the first hallway. It’s all the way at the end” she explained.
“Thank you very much” I replied before I ran to the elevator.
Once I finally made it upstairs, I followed the directions exactly the way the nurse explained to me. At the end of the hallway, there was a sign that read: “ICU Waiting Room”. It was a big open room at the end of the hallway and there were two other hallways there. I immediately saw Peyton leaning on Ariel’s shoulder crying as they sat in the waiting room.
“Ariel!” I yelled to her and they looked up at me.
“Is!” she yelled back as she got up and ran to hug me.
“How is he?” I asked as she began to cry on my shoulder.
“He’s not going to make it Is! My brother’s dying. He’s abandoning us,” she said between sobs. “My brother’s dying,” she repeated again in a low tone as she broke don hysterically.
“Can I see him please?” I asked as we pulled away.
“Yea sure I think he’s been waiting for you, you know to go away,” she said as she wiped the tears.
“I can’t believe this,” I said to myself as she walked me to the room.
“Mom um Isabella’s here,” she said as we entered Lucas’ room.
“Isabella” Mrs. Davis said as she engulfed me in the biggest hug.
She looked like a complete mess. Her eyes were blood shot red from all the crying. As she pulled away, I looked over to the bed to see Lucas wrapped in bandages from his neck down. He looked so helpless. He wasn’t the happy boy I knew that always found a way around the bad things. His face was cut up with scratches. I walked over to him and laid my hand on his. He looked peaceful and calm even though you could tell the pain he was going through deep down inside.
“We’ll leave you two alone,” Mrs. Davis said to me.
“Thank you Mrs. Davis” I replied to her as she headed for the door behind Ariel.
“Look at you Lucas. What happened to you? What happened to the boy that never let anything keep him on his feet? You were always the stronger, braver one and now look. You’re in a hospital dying and to top it all off you’re killing me and your family. You should look at our mom she’s a complete mess. And your sisters they’re out there crying their life out for you. Stop being so selfish! Think about the ones you care about and how much you’re hurting them right now. Please wake up Lucas don’t do this to me please,” I begged as I laid my head on his hand and cried. “I need you Luke I need you! You’re the one who gave me strength when my parents died and I need you more than ever now! I need you to help me move on with my life. Without you there’s no point in living anymore” I cried hysterically. “You’re all I have left”
“Don’t. Say. That” I heard a voice and I looked up to see him moving his lips. “Don’t say that I’m all you have left,” he added and then he squeezed my hand. “I love you Isabella. I always have and I always will”
“I love you too Luke I was just too afraid to admit it. I love you with all my heart and I know that now” I replied.
“You always have” he replied.
“Please just get up and get better. We could be together this time I promise. Things will get better.”
“I know they will,” he said as his eyes flew open. “You need to stand up on your own two feet Isabella without me,” he added.
“But I can’t Luke I need you to be with me. I love you and I can’t be without you. You’ve always been the love of my life and I need you now more than ever” I replied as tears fell.
“Don’t give up your dream,” he said.
“Ariel!” I called as loud as possible.
“One day you’ll be the great rockstar I always knew you’d be” he whispered as he pulled my hand to his lips and kissed it.
“What is it?” Ariel said as she ran in with her mom and sister behind. “Omg” she said as her mouth flew open.
“Come closer Is” he said to me and I did. He softly put his hand on my face.
“I will always love you,” he said to me as he pulled me into a kiss on the lips. “Always and forever” he added.
“So will I Luke. Forever and always” I replied as I kissed him again.
“Promise me something,” he said as I pulled away.
“Anything”
“No matter what obstacles you over come in life you will always follow your dreams” He said.
“I promise now please stop talking as if you’re going to die cause you’re not. You can’t. You promised you’d always be there,” I reminded him.
“And I will” he said “In here” he said as he laid his hand on my heart.
“Always and forever” he whispered and then he closed his eyes.
“Forever and always” I replied.
*BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP* the line on the machine went dead.
*JOE’S POV*
We were boarding the private jet my brother called in after I explained to him Isabella’s situation. He agreed to help me when he realized how much I loved this girl.
I didn’t even know how much I loved this girl until he pointed it out to me. We quickly boarded the jet and it took off instantly. Instead of the five-hour flight from L.A. to Miami, it took us only two and half hours. When we arrived, Kevin rented a car and we found a hotel near the beach. As soon as we checked into our room, I opened up my laptop and signed onto AIM. She still wasn’t back. She still hadn’t replied to my message.
IM For: rockstar550
liveformusic:I’m here
I wrote and then I sat back and waited.
“I’m going to step out for a bit call if anything,” Kevin said as he walked to the door. “Do you need anything?” he asked.
“No I’m good I’m just going to sit here and wait for a reply,” I answered.
“Everything’s going to be alright little bro you’ll see” he said and then he walked out the room.
The only thing left to do was wait.
*ISABELLA’S POV*
“No Lucas!” I yelled. “Please don’t leave me,” I begged. “Come back I need you please” I said as I squeezed his hands.
“My baby!” I heard Mrs. Davis yell as she ran to his side.
The nurses ran in and so did the doctors. I stepped away from him and let his hand fall limp. All the noise and the crying and yelling went silent. I could see them yelling and screaming but I couldn’t hear anything. Everything was mute. Ariel and Peyton were hugging each other as they cried for the loss of their brother. I silently walked out of the room. My face was expressionless and no tears were spilling. I walked out of the room, punched the wall with full force, and cried a bit. I regained my posture and then peeked back into the room to see that everything was real. It wasn’t a dream. Lucas was gone. I turned around and ran. I ran to the nearest staircase I found. I flew down the steps and out the door and ran towards my car in the garage. I jumped in started the engine and drove away as fast as possible. I didn’t know where I was headed I just wanted to go far away from all the pain. I ended up by the beach. I killed the engine, stepped out of the car, and slowly walked onto the sand. It was the same beach my parents used to always bring me to when I was a child and the same beach I used to visit with Lucas when we were in High school. I walked over to the rocks my dad and I used to fish from. I picked up pebbles and began to throw them into the water as I remembered all the good times I used to have there with my family and my only love. I pictured my parents chasing me up and down these sands. I pictured Lucas’ gorgeous smile and his cheerful laugh that day he tried to teach me to ride a Jet Ski but I kept falling off. It was one of the best days of my life since my parents died.
*FLASHBACK*
“I’m never going to get this Luke just give up already,” I said angrily as I climbed back onto the Jet Ski after falling six times before.
“Yea you will just be patient,” he said as he tried to contain his laughter.
“It’s not funny” I replied.
“Yea it is you should’ve seen your face you looked so funny” he replied as he laughed at me.
“That’s it take me back to shore I’m done learning” I answered as I pouted.
“Did I ever tell you that you look cute when you’re mad?” he said as he looked down onto my face.
“No now let’s go” I replied.
“Especially when you pout” he added and I just looked up at him. “You have the most beautiful eyes I’ve ever seen,” he said as he put his hand softly on my cheek.
We were in a daze trapped in each other’s eyes for a while. Then he looked down at my lips and began to move in. I moved an inch closer and then his lips softly touched mine. The feeling he gave me was so indescribable. The hairs on the back of my neck stood up and then he slowly pulled back and looked at me. This time I moved in first and he moved forward, put his hand behind my head, and pulled me into a passionate kiss. My heart began to pound uncontrollably fast. It was the greatest feeling until we both fell back off the Jet Ski and into the ocean.
“Ha ha” he began to laugh that cheerful laugh I loved so much.
“You jerk let’s get back to shore please” I smacked him playfully.
*PRESENT*
It was the best day of my life. I never told him how I felt that day and he never tried to kiss me again. But I knew that I was in love with him since that day, since that kiss. I cried wishing I would’ve told him how I felt sooner. None of this would’ve happened. We would’ve been together since the beginning. I looked up to notice that there was a bridge. I can’t live without him. I jumped into the car and drove to the bridge. It began to rain again. There was thunder and lightning as the rain poured down. I stopped the car once I reached the bridge. I didn’t even bother turning it off I just jumped out and left the car open. I walked over to the bridge and climbed onto the rail.
“Why god? Why do these things have to happen to me?” I yelled to the sky. “Lucas I’m so sorry. I love you I always have and now it’s too late because you’re gone.” I cried. “You’re gone,” I repeated. “Why god? Why did you take him from me? He was all I had left. I can’t be without you the pain is just too much” I said as I prepared to jump from the bridge into the cold ocean current. “Forever and always” I whispered.
“Is.” I heard a voice yell and I turned around. “Don’t do this!”
CHAPTER 18:
I immediately clicked. Who was that? I decided to call back and find out.
“Hello” he answered again a little frustrated.
“Who is this?” I asked immediately.
“Jack who’s this?” he returned the question.
“Kevin. Why do you have Brooke’s phone?” I questioned.
“I woke up and she was asleep next to me and I heard her phone ring so I answered, who are you anyways Kevin?” he explained.
“Nobody what are you doing with her?” I asked nervously afraid to hear the answer.
“I honestly don’t remember we went out together last night and got drunk and ended up in her apartment I can’t tell you anymore,” he explained. “Sorry” he added.
“Well when your little girlfriend wakes up tell her that her boyfriend called her” I replied and then clicked only to hear him yell ‘what!’
That’s it for us and I meant it this time. She was drunk with another guy and probably slept with him. I'm not going to stand here like an idiot and pretend that I'm blind and that I don’t see the pain she’s causing me. Later on that day she called me and asked me to meet, her somewhere and I decided now was the time to end things.
“Hi Kevin thanks for meeting me here” she said as I took a seat on the bench beside her. She had invited me to a park she thought we could talk better here.
“Yea what did you need to tell me?” I jumped to the purpose I was here.
“Kevin I'm sorry” she apologized.
“Oh yea now you’re sorry but you don’t understand the pain I’ve gone through because of you all the suffering the heartbreak all because of your stupidity and immaturity. I can’t take it anymore. I am not going to just stand here and watch you sleep with other men. That’s not me anymore. I'm done with it and I'm done with you. I mean isn’t that what you wanted to get me out of your life so that you could be free to do other things”
“Kevin listen,” she begged.
“No you listen,” I said sternly. “I'm done playing your stupid games. I never wanted things to be this way but this is what you looked for. Don’t look for me or call me or anything just forget I ever existed and I’ll forget all the pain that this relationship caused me” I turned and walked away.
“Kevin” she begged and I turned back.
“And to think I actually wanted to marry you. I wanted to spend my life with you,” I half laughed at how crazy the idea seemed now.
“I wanted that too Kev” she said through tears.
“Oh please don’t come to me with that *beep* Brooke you don’t know what you want,” I yelled.
“I want you Kevin and only you,” she sobbed.
“Yea right do you seriously believe that?” I questioned and she looked down. “Exactly”
“I do,” she said
“Call me when you believe it yourself”
“But I do only want you” she repeated.
“Bye Brooke go lie to someone else” I said and walked away forever.
I got into my car and drove away without even bothering to look back, I was so hurt yet relieved. I really hoped all this heartbreak was over and done with. I arrived home only to stay seated behind the wheel as I let all the emotions flow out. I cried like a baby but I was finally free. Maybe I could find the real girl that made me feel so special that night at the Halloween party in Florida. I know now Joanna wasn’t her she was too opposite of her. She was nothing like the Joanna I met at the party. I got off the car and entered the house to be stared at by Nick and Joe. I told them everything that went down at the park and they were proud of me. They were also disappointed that I took so long to do it.
*ISABELLA’S POV*
Today was thanksgiving and of course, I had to work. I couldn’t wait till the day I would be able to leave. Secretly I was saving my money from working so much to one day just pick up and leave. I would meet up with Lucas and we would live together and study together until we graduated and made enough money to go our separate ways. That was the plan and continued to be the plan until today. I was on my way home from work when I got a phone call from Ariel it was about 7pm.
“Hey girl was sup,” I answered.
“Is” she answered hysterically crying.
“Ariel what’s wrong?” I asked worriedly.
“It’s… It’s” she hesitated. “It’s Lucas,” she finally said.
“What’s wrong with Lucas?” I asked impatiently.
“Is” she began to cry more.
“Ariel tell me what the hell is wrong with Lucas” I yelled.
“His plane crashed” she replied.
“What plane what are you talking about?” I asked confusedly.
“He was coming down for thanksgiving he wanted to surprise you but something happened to the plane and it crashed before landing,” she explained between sobs.
“Is he Ok?” I asked.
“They just found his body he’s burned really badly and they’re taking him in the ambulance to the hospital” she replied.
“What hospital?” I asked as tears filled my eyes.
“I don’t know they’re going to call us as soon as they find out” she said.
“I'm driving into my driveway let me get a couple things and I’ll head over there to your house okay,” I said as tears fell from my eyes.
“Hurry I don’t think he’s going to make it” she added as she began to cry hysterically again.
“Don’t think like that I know you’re brother he’s strong he’ll make it” I replied between sobs as I made my way through the front door.
“Hurry” she said and then she clicked.
I ran down the steps into my bedroom and saw that my computer screen was flashing.
IM For: rockstar550
liveformusic:Hey Bella! =D what's up?
rockstar550:Hey Joe! I can’t really talk right now something came up and I have to leave asap
liveformusic:Is everything ok?
Rockstar550:Remember my best friend Lucas
liveformusic:Yea
Rockstar550:He was coming down to Miami to visit me for thanksgiving and his plane crashed he’s in the hospital and he might not make it through the night
liveformusic:Omg Isabella I'm so sorry
Rockstar550:It’s not your fault things like this just always seem to happen to me but I gotta go I want to be with him the last few minutes.
liveformusic:Everythings going to be ok I promise
Rockstar550:No it won’t now I really have to go
I didn’t wait for him to reply. I got up from the computer grabbed a jacket and an umbrella. It had started to pour while I was talking to Ariel and I didn’t even notice. I ran up the stairs, got into my car, and sped off to Ariel’s house.
*JOE’S POV*
IM For: rockstar550
liveformusic:Hey Bella! =D what's up?
rockstar550:Hey Joe! I can’t really talk right now something came up and I have to leave asap
liveformusic:Is everything ok?
Rockstar550:Remember my best friend Lucas
liveformusic:Yea
Rockstar550:He was coming down to Miami to visit me for thanksgiving and his plane crashed he’s in the hospital and he might not make it through the night
liveformusic:Omg Isabella I'm so sorry
Rockstar550:It’s not your fault things like this just always seem to happen to me but I gotta go I want to be with him the last few minutes.
liveformusic:Everythings going to be ok I promise
Rockstar550:No it won’t now I really have to go
liveformusic:I'm taking the next plane out to Miami
She didn’t reply. I signed off and ran into Kevin’s room only he could help me.
“Hello” he answered again a little frustrated.
“Who is this?” I asked immediately.
“Jack who’s this?” he returned the question.
“Kevin. Why do you have Brooke’s phone?” I questioned.
“I woke up and she was asleep next to me and I heard her phone ring so I answered, who are you anyways Kevin?” he explained.
“Nobody what are you doing with her?” I asked nervously afraid to hear the answer.
“I honestly don’t remember we went out together last night and got drunk and ended up in her apartment I can’t tell you anymore,” he explained. “Sorry” he added.
“Well when your little girlfriend wakes up tell her that her boyfriend called her” I replied and then clicked only to hear him yell ‘what!’
That’s it for us and I meant it this time. She was drunk with another guy and probably slept with him. I'm not going to stand here like an idiot and pretend that I'm blind and that I don’t see the pain she’s causing me. Later on that day she called me and asked me to meet, her somewhere and I decided now was the time to end things.
“Hi Kevin thanks for meeting me here” she said as I took a seat on the bench beside her. She had invited me to a park she thought we could talk better here.
“Yea what did you need to tell me?” I jumped to the purpose I was here.
“Kevin I'm sorry” she apologized.
“Oh yea now you’re sorry but you don’t understand the pain I’ve gone through because of you all the suffering the heartbreak all because of your stupidity and immaturity. I can’t take it anymore. I am not going to just stand here and watch you sleep with other men. That’s not me anymore. I'm done with it and I'm done with you. I mean isn’t that what you wanted to get me out of your life so that you could be free to do other things”
“Kevin listen,” she begged.
“No you listen,” I said sternly. “I'm done playing your stupid games. I never wanted things to be this way but this is what you looked for. Don’t look for me or call me or anything just forget I ever existed and I’ll forget all the pain that this relationship caused me” I turned and walked away.
“Kevin” she begged and I turned back.
“And to think I actually wanted to marry you. I wanted to spend my life with you,” I half laughed at how crazy the idea seemed now.
“I wanted that too Kev” she said through tears.
“Oh please don’t come to me with that *beep* Brooke you don’t know what you want,” I yelled.
“I want you Kevin and only you,” she sobbed.
“Yea right do you seriously believe that?” I questioned and she looked down. “Exactly”
“I do,” she said
“Call me when you believe it yourself”
“But I do only want you” she repeated.
“Bye Brooke go lie to someone else” I said and walked away forever.
I got into my car and drove away without even bothering to look back, I was so hurt yet relieved. I really hoped all this heartbreak was over and done with. I arrived home only to stay seated behind the wheel as I let all the emotions flow out. I cried like a baby but I was finally free. Maybe I could find the real girl that made me feel so special that night at the Halloween party in Florida. I know now Joanna wasn’t her she was too opposite of her. She was nothing like the Joanna I met at the party. I got off the car and entered the house to be stared at by Nick and Joe. I told them everything that went down at the park and they were proud of me. They were also disappointed that I took so long to do it.
*ISABELLA’S POV*
Today was thanksgiving and of course, I had to work. I couldn’t wait till the day I would be able to leave. Secretly I was saving my money from working so much to one day just pick up and leave. I would meet up with Lucas and we would live together and study together until we graduated and made enough money to go our separate ways. That was the plan and continued to be the plan until today. I was on my way home from work when I got a phone call from Ariel it was about 7pm.
“Hey girl was sup,” I answered.
“Is” she answered hysterically crying.
“Ariel what’s wrong?” I asked worriedly.
“It’s… It’s” she hesitated. “It’s Lucas,” she finally said.
“What’s wrong with Lucas?” I asked impatiently.
“Is” she began to cry more.
“Ariel tell me what the hell is wrong with Lucas” I yelled.
“His plane crashed” she replied.
“What plane what are you talking about?” I asked confusedly.
“He was coming down for thanksgiving he wanted to surprise you but something happened to the plane and it crashed before landing,” she explained between sobs.
“Is he Ok?” I asked.
“They just found his body he’s burned really badly and they’re taking him in the ambulance to the hospital” she replied.
“What hospital?” I asked as tears filled my eyes.
“I don’t know they’re going to call us as soon as they find out” she said.
“I'm driving into my driveway let me get a couple things and I’ll head over there to your house okay,” I said as tears fell from my eyes.
“Hurry I don’t think he’s going to make it” she added as she began to cry hysterically again.
“Don’t think like that I know you’re brother he’s strong he’ll make it” I replied between sobs as I made my way through the front door.
“Hurry” she said and then she clicked.
I ran down the steps into my bedroom and saw that my computer screen was flashing.
IM For: rockstar550
liveformusic:Hey Bella! =D what's up?
rockstar550:Hey Joe! I can’t really talk right now something came up and I have to leave asap
liveformusic:Is everything ok?
Rockstar550:Remember my best friend Lucas
liveformusic:Yea
Rockstar550:He was coming down to Miami to visit me for thanksgiving and his plane crashed he’s in the hospital and he might not make it through the night
liveformusic:Omg Isabella I'm so sorry
Rockstar550:It’s not your fault things like this just always seem to happen to me but I gotta go I want to be with him the last few minutes.
liveformusic:Everythings going to be ok I promise
Rockstar550:No it won’t now I really have to go
I didn’t wait for him to reply. I got up from the computer grabbed a jacket and an umbrella. It had started to pour while I was talking to Ariel and I didn’t even notice. I ran up the stairs, got into my car, and sped off to Ariel’s house.
*JOE’S POV*
IM For: rockstar550
liveformusic:Hey Bella! =D what's up?
rockstar550:Hey Joe! I can’t really talk right now something came up and I have to leave asap
liveformusic:Is everything ok?
Rockstar550:Remember my best friend Lucas
liveformusic:Yea
Rockstar550:He was coming down to Miami to visit me for thanksgiving and his plane crashed he’s in the hospital and he might not make it through the night
liveformusic:Omg Isabella I'm so sorry
Rockstar550:It’s not your fault things like this just always seem to happen to me but I gotta go I want to be with him the last few minutes.
liveformusic:Everythings going to be ok I promise
Rockstar550:No it won’t now I really have to go
liveformusic:I'm taking the next plane out to Miami
She didn’t reply. I signed off and ran into Kevin’s room only he could help me.
CHAPTER 17:
*3RD PERSON POV*
About a month has gone by. It is a couple days before thanksgiving and Kevin and Is haven't spoken since the day he left. Joe and her still remain friends and chat online everyday but he still hasn't gotten the courage to tell her who he really is. Since Kevin left, Joe and her have gotten closer and she is really staring to like him a lot. Lucas still talks to her every now and then to make sure she's okay and Ariel and Peyton still hang around her at work when the evil cousins aren't around. Edward still has this huge crush on Ariel. Ariel and Joe don't really speak to each other anymore the whole long distance relationship didn't quite work for Ariel. Nick and Peyton are still talking and they are dating but not publicly. And Nicole hasn't quit being a bitch. Kevin still believes that Virginia is Joanna but he hasn't officially made her his girlfriend yet. Brooke and him still ride their little love roller coaster because he doesn't feel that Joanna is the one. He no longer feels what he felt that one night.
*ISABELLA'S POV*
"So Luke how's college?" I asked into the phone.
"It's alright but it would be better if I had you here to share it with" he replied.
"I know I really wish I was there it's been a year already since I last saw you"
"I miss you Is life isn't the same here without you" he said sweetly.
Lucas ever since we were five has always had a crush on me. Sometimes I believe he still does but I can only see him as my best friend like a brother. I know he's always wanted us to be more but I've told him that it would just be too weird. I mean don't get me wrong Lucas is gorgeous he has girls always after him but he only has the eyes for me. He is tall with black shaggy hair and green eyes. He has the body of an underwear model and the mind of a romantic poet/genius. He could be so happy with many other way prettier girls but he chooses not to because he believes his happiness is only found in me. I know that's very sweet but my heart just never felt right for him. He deserves a lot better and he deserves the love that I can't give him. I only loved him as a friend not as a boyfriend.
"Neither is home" I replied.
"I'm thinking about taking some time off school and visiting for Christmas"
"Really that's great I need to see you soon. All I've been doing is working like crazy. I need some time off to spend time with you," I answered.
"Then I will be there soon I promise" he replied.
"Great well I gotta go" I said looking at my watch. "My shift starts in half an hour so I have to start heading out," I said sadly not wanting to let him go.
"Alright then I have to start heading to class anyway. Just call me as soon as you get out" he replied sadly.
"I will Luke take care"
"You too" he said sweetly. "I love you and remember that always," he added.
"I love you too bye" I answered.
"Bye" he said and then clicked.
I stared at my computer screen from where I had signed off from talking with Joe before Lucas called. I was really starting to fall deep for Joe. Kevin wasn't really in my mind much since he left and we never spoke again. Joe took his place in my mind and my heart. I closed aim and headed up the basement stairs to my car.
*ARIEL'S POV*
"Hey Lucas" I said after answering my cell.
"Hi El" he replied. "Listen I need the biggest favor"
"What is it?" I asked.
"I just finished speaking to Is and she was pretty excited when I told her that I might be going down to Florida for Christmas and she told me that she really needed me" he explained.
"Okay and I come in where?"
"Do you think you could look on the internet for a cheap ticket to go down there for thanksgiving this Thursday?" he asked.
"Yeah sure to return when?" I asked.
"Monday morning would be good" he replied.
"Omg wait till I tell Is your coming in two days. She's going to be so excited shoot I'm excited omg ah," I yelled.
"Don't tell her I want to surprise her," he advised me.
"Aw man I wanted to see her expression when I told her but fine okay I won't tell her" I assured him. "I promise"
"Alright" he replied.
"Just give me a second the page is opening on the computer," I said.
"Oh you're going to do it now?" he asked.
"Yea I'm already in front of the computer I might as well" I replied. "Just give me a second"
After about five minutes, I found a ticket on Spirit Airlines for $120. It was a round trip from L.A., California to Miami, Florida and back. It was from Thursday at 2pm our time 10am his time arriving at 7pm our time to Monday at 12pm our time.
"That's good," he said after I explained to him everything.
"Alright then I'll just email the confirmation code to you and everything all you have to do is print that and take it to the check out counter on Thursday and you're set" I explained.
"Alright then thanks El I love you and I gotta go. Tell mom and Peyton I love them"
"Will do and I love you too bro bye"
"Bye" he clicked.
*KEVIN'S POV*
It was almost a month since I met Joanna and Brooke and I were still on our roller coaster ride of break ups and make-ups. I still spoke to Joanna every now and then but we really weren't getting any where. She wasn't the same girl I met on Halloween. Sometimes my brothers would try to convince me that she was an imposter but I never believed it. I was really starting to believe it lately, I was really getting tired of Brooke's jealousy, and Joanna's all the time phone calls. She was beginning to scare me because she was getting a little obsessed. She sometimes thought her and I were actually dating when the only thing I saw in her was being friends.
*Ring*
*Ring*
Who was calling me at midnight?
*Ring*
"Hello" I answered to tired to even check my caller ID.
"Heeeeelooooooo" Brooke answered weirdly.
"Brooke are you drunk?" I asked immediately.
"Noooo silly now now w-w-why would y-you think thaaat" she answered as she stuttered and slurred the words. "Just tell him that youuuu love meeee Brooke" I heard a guy say in the back.
"Listen to the way you're talking Brooke you can't even speak right" I half yelled into the phone.
"Kevin I-I hate you you k-kno-know that. I-I never loved you ha ha ha" she said as she broke into a fit of laughter.
"I'm not going to speak to you like this" I replied.
"You sh-sh-shouldn't speak to me e-everrrrrrrr" she replied. "I've be-been p-p-playing with youuuu everrrrr since the beginng the begin the beginning of our relationship" she added.
"Bye Brooke" I clicked.
I lay in bed just looking up at the ceiling. Was she saying the truth? Did she ever really love me as she said she did? I mean she was drunk so it all could've been a lie. Then again, drunk usually tell the truth. Then who was the guy in the background? I tossed and turned all night. She kept calling me. Until around 2am, she finally quit and I finally closed my eyes and went to sleep. The next morning I woke up wishing everything that happened last night was a dream. When I looked at my phone and saw all the missed calls and text messages saying 'I hate you', 'It's over' I realized it was all real. I decided to call her And see what was up with the phone call and the texts.
*Ring*
*Ring*
The phone rung twice until a guy answered very sleepily.
"Hello"
About a month has gone by. It is a couple days before thanksgiving and Kevin and Is haven't spoken since the day he left. Joe and her still remain friends and chat online everyday but he still hasn't gotten the courage to tell her who he really is. Since Kevin left, Joe and her have gotten closer and she is really staring to like him a lot. Lucas still talks to her every now and then to make sure she's okay and Ariel and Peyton still hang around her at work when the evil cousins aren't around. Edward still has this huge crush on Ariel. Ariel and Joe don't really speak to each other anymore the whole long distance relationship didn't quite work for Ariel. Nick and Peyton are still talking and they are dating but not publicly. And Nicole hasn't quit being a bitch. Kevin still believes that Virginia is Joanna but he hasn't officially made her his girlfriend yet. Brooke and him still ride their little love roller coaster because he doesn't feel that Joanna is the one. He no longer feels what he felt that one night.
*ISABELLA'S POV*
"So Luke how's college?" I asked into the phone.
"It's alright but it would be better if I had you here to share it with" he replied.
"I know I really wish I was there it's been a year already since I last saw you"
"I miss you Is life isn't the same here without you" he said sweetly.
Lucas ever since we were five has always had a crush on me. Sometimes I believe he still does but I can only see him as my best friend like a brother. I know he's always wanted us to be more but I've told him that it would just be too weird. I mean don't get me wrong Lucas is gorgeous he has girls always after him but he only has the eyes for me. He is tall with black shaggy hair and green eyes. He has the body of an underwear model and the mind of a romantic poet/genius. He could be so happy with many other way prettier girls but he chooses not to because he believes his happiness is only found in me. I know that's very sweet but my heart just never felt right for him. He deserves a lot better and he deserves the love that I can't give him. I only loved him as a friend not as a boyfriend.
"Neither is home" I replied.
"I'm thinking about taking some time off school and visiting for Christmas"
"Really that's great I need to see you soon. All I've been doing is working like crazy. I need some time off to spend time with you," I answered.
"Then I will be there soon I promise" he replied.
"Great well I gotta go" I said looking at my watch. "My shift starts in half an hour so I have to start heading out," I said sadly not wanting to let him go.
"Alright then I have to start heading to class anyway. Just call me as soon as you get out" he replied sadly.
"I will Luke take care"
"You too" he said sweetly. "I love you and remember that always," he added.
"I love you too bye" I answered.
"Bye" he said and then clicked.
I stared at my computer screen from where I had signed off from talking with Joe before Lucas called. I was really starting to fall deep for Joe. Kevin wasn't really in my mind much since he left and we never spoke again. Joe took his place in my mind and my heart. I closed aim and headed up the basement stairs to my car.
*ARIEL'S POV*
"Hey Lucas" I said after answering my cell.
"Hi El" he replied. "Listen I need the biggest favor"
"What is it?" I asked.
"I just finished speaking to Is and she was pretty excited when I told her that I might be going down to Florida for Christmas and she told me that she really needed me" he explained.
"Okay and I come in where?"
"Do you think you could look on the internet for a cheap ticket to go down there for thanksgiving this Thursday?" he asked.
"Yeah sure to return when?" I asked.
"Monday morning would be good" he replied.
"Omg wait till I tell Is your coming in two days. She's going to be so excited shoot I'm excited omg ah," I yelled.
"Don't tell her I want to surprise her," he advised me.
"Aw man I wanted to see her expression when I told her but fine okay I won't tell her" I assured him. "I promise"
"Alright" he replied.
"Just give me a second the page is opening on the computer," I said.
"Oh you're going to do it now?" he asked.
"Yea I'm already in front of the computer I might as well" I replied. "Just give me a second"
After about five minutes, I found a ticket on Spirit Airlines for $120. It was a round trip from L.A., California to Miami, Florida and back. It was from Thursday at 2pm our time 10am his time arriving at 7pm our time to Monday at 12pm our time.
"That's good," he said after I explained to him everything.
"Alright then I'll just email the confirmation code to you and everything all you have to do is print that and take it to the check out counter on Thursday and you're set" I explained.
"Alright then thanks El I love you and I gotta go. Tell mom and Peyton I love them"
"Will do and I love you too bro bye"
"Bye" he clicked.
*KEVIN'S POV*
It was almost a month since I met Joanna and Brooke and I were still on our roller coaster ride of break ups and make-ups. I still spoke to Joanna every now and then but we really weren't getting any where. She wasn't the same girl I met on Halloween. Sometimes my brothers would try to convince me that she was an imposter but I never believed it. I was really starting to believe it lately, I was really getting tired of Brooke's jealousy, and Joanna's all the time phone calls. She was beginning to scare me because she was getting a little obsessed. She sometimes thought her and I were actually dating when the only thing I saw in her was being friends.
*Ring*
*Ring*
Who was calling me at midnight?
*Ring*
"Hello" I answered to tired to even check my caller ID.
"Heeeeelooooooo" Brooke answered weirdly.
"Brooke are you drunk?" I asked immediately.
"Noooo silly now now w-w-why would y-you think thaaat" she answered as she stuttered and slurred the words. "Just tell him that youuuu love meeee Brooke" I heard a guy say in the back.
"Listen to the way you're talking Brooke you can't even speak right" I half yelled into the phone.
"Kevin I-I hate you you k-kno-know that. I-I never loved you ha ha ha" she said as she broke into a fit of laughter.
"I'm not going to speak to you like this" I replied.
"You sh-sh-shouldn't speak to me e-everrrrrrrr" she replied. "I've be-been p-p-playing with youuuu everrrrr since the beginng the begin the beginning of our relationship" she added.
"Bye Brooke" I clicked.
I lay in bed just looking up at the ceiling. Was she saying the truth? Did she ever really love me as she said she did? I mean she was drunk so it all could've been a lie. Then again, drunk usually tell the truth. Then who was the guy in the background? I tossed and turned all night. She kept calling me. Until around 2am, she finally quit and I finally closed my eyes and went to sleep. The next morning I woke up wishing everything that happened last night was a dream. When I looked at my phone and saw all the missed calls and text messages saying 'I hate you', 'It's over' I realized it was all real. I decided to call her And see what was up with the phone call and the texts.
*Ring*
*Ring*
The phone rung twice until a guy answered very sleepily.
"Hello"
CHAPTER 16:
*KEVIN’S POV*
As I walked out of the room I thought about how great Is was to me. She really was a great friend. I was truly going to miss her. Then I thought about how her eyes reminded me of Joanna’s eyes. They sparkled the same way. Actually now that I come to think of it, the girl that claimed to be Joanna didn’t have that sparkle. Sure, they were green but they weren’t the same green. I walked out of the store and back to my brothers.
I remembered two minutes ago when I was walking out of the room.
“I promised remember and thanks Is you’re a great friend” I said and then I walked out the door. “Too bad that’s all we’ll ever be,” I whispered to the closed door behind me as I began to walk away.
Why didn’t I go back in there and tell her that I thought I liked her. That something about her reminded me of Joanna yet something seemed different. I shook the thought away from my head and continued walking towards my brothers who were packed and ready to leave.
*ISABELLA’S POV*
I walked over to the window in the guitar room and watched as he walked out of the store. He paused for a second and turned around. I quickly backed away before he saw me. I approached the window again seconds later but he was gone. I walked out and over to the register to continue working. It was already seven o’clock and it was a Saturday night so I only had two more hours to go before the entire mall closed including Miller Music.
*JOE’S POV*
We were in the car on our way back to the hotel after a long day of signing autographs and searching for Kevin’s Cinderella. I was relieved when he told me that he had found her but something just didn’t feel right. It seems way too easy. I mean she ran out devastated after those horrible girls treated her so badly. I don’t think she would come out to the light so easily and so quickly. If it were me I would be sad and crying and embarrassed to even show my face. I would be scared. But I'm not that girl. Maybe she’s just different and maybe she’s just brave. Still, I find it way to quick then my brother tells me that she wants to go out tonight. I don’t know but something’s up and I'm going to find out what.
We arrived at the hotel about a half hour later just to get ready and leave again. As soon as we got upstairs and into our room, Kevin began his planning and I went straight to the laptop. I signed onto my aim and saw that Isabella wasn’t online. I wonder what she’s doing right now. She’s probably busy work…
“Hello Joe” Kevin said snapping me out of my thoughts. “Earth to Joe” he waved his hand in my face.
“Huh” I said as I signed off aim.
“Did you hear anything I said?” he asked as he sat next to me.
“Not really” I replied.
“Well are you going?” he asked.
“Where?” I replied with a question.
“Out with Joanna and her sister tonight” he said.
“Uh I guess sure why not?” I answered.
“Alright then get ready she’ll be here in an hour” he said and he got up and walked to the bathroom.
Nick and I quickly got ready while Kevin took forever. I knew he was in the bathroom ironing his hair. I could smell it. After about a half hour after Nick and I were ready, we heard the hotel room phone ring.
“I got it,” I said to Nick who attempted to get it.
“Hello” I said into the receiver.
“Mr. Jonas you have a visitor downstairs by the name of Joanna” the concierge replied.
“Okay we’ll be down in a sec thanks” I said before hanging up. “Kevin your girlfriend’s here” I yelled to the bathroom door as I knocked on the door “We’ll be downstairs” I said as I grabbed my jacket and headed towards the door.
“Okay I'm done,” he said coming out of the bathroom and grabbing his jacket.
“Let’s go” I said to Nick as we opened the door and walked out.
We got into the elevator and made our way down. When the elevator doors opened we walked into the lobby and saw her sitting on the couch with someone who resembled her I'm guessing it was her sister.
We had our introductions and then made our way out to Joanna’s car. She had a Hummer H3 in a really nice royal blue. The interior was really nice. It had black leather seats and a touch screen radio with TVs behind every seat. The windows were tinted really dark. My first guess was that this girl had money and a lot of it. She drove in front with Kevin. Her sister Juliet sat next to me in the back and Nick sat on my left side. It was obvious she had a crush on me. It was somewhat awkward because she kept staring at me and batting her eyes. I was so uncomfortable sitting by her. I was so glad when we finally arrived at downtown Miami.
Juliet said this place was called Bayside. It had a lot of shops and restaurants and there was a marina where there were a lot of ships. There was from romantic ships to eat dinner to party ships that looked like nightclubs with their bright strobe lights. We rode a ferry called Captain Jimmy's Fiesta (Party Boat). It was a club in a boat. It was a lot of fun dancing in a moving nightclub until Juliet started grinding on me. At first, I didn’t mind until she started to move sexually on me. When I say sexually, I mean sexually she even tried to touch me and that was after she tried to kiss me. Thankfully, the boat stopped when we arrived back at the marina and I hurriedly rushed onto the dock. I tried my best to stay away from her. I even told Nick and he totally understood. That as after he had a good laugh about it. He tried his best to stay by me so that she didn’t get the chance to try anything again. We went to eat then we went to watch a performance by the marina. There was a cute little stage by the water where people would just sit and dance to people playing music and singing. It was really nice. When we arrived back at the car I made sure I got the window and Nick sat next to me and Juliet on the complete other side of him far from me, I could tell she was kind of bumped but it still didn’t stop her from gawking at me.
We arrived at the hotel and I quickly jumped off the car and waved goodbye. I wanted no physical contact with Juliet whatsoever. I was afraid she might grab my butt or something. I quickly walked into the hotel before she jumped off the car and ran after me. Nick followed behind me laughing as I made my way into the elevator.
“So have a nice night Joe?” he said sarcastically as we reached our floor.
“So not funny Nick” I said sourly as the doors opened and I walked out with him trailing behind.
“Yea it was Joe it was hilarious and you know it” he said as we entered our room.
“Whatever” I said as I made my way towards the laptop.
I looked at the clock to see that it was ten thirty. I grabbed the laptop and signed on aim. Isabella had to be online.
IM For: rockstar550
liveformusic:Hey Bella! =D what's up?
rockstar550:Hey Joe! =) How ya been?
liveformusic:I’ve been good and you?
rockstar550:I’ve been okay you know getting by
liveformusic:How was your birthday?
rockstar550:It was actually very full of adventure
liveformusic:really?
rockstar550:Yeah
liveformusic:what did you do?
rockstar550:I went to a concert
liveformusic:which one?
rockstar550:some band called the Jonas Brothers
liveformusic:oh really
rockstar550:yeah
liveformusic:I never knew you liked them
rockstar550:I didn’t my best friends little sister made me listen to them and then someone gave me free tickets
liveformusic:so what did you think?
rockstar550:they were pretty good I liked it they did a very good performance
liveformusic:thank you
rockstar550:huh?
liveformusic:I'm sorry I was talking to my brother and I wrote what I said to him sorry
rockstar550: oh well I got to go to bed I have work tomorrow
liveformusic:alright then I’ll talk to you tomorrow then
rockstar550:alright bye Joe and thanks for caring about me so much you’re a great friend
liveformusic:same here bye Isabella
rockstar550:bye
rockstar550 has signed off
Too bad friends is all we could ever be.
As I walked out of the room I thought about how great Is was to me. She really was a great friend. I was truly going to miss her. Then I thought about how her eyes reminded me of Joanna’s eyes. They sparkled the same way. Actually now that I come to think of it, the girl that claimed to be Joanna didn’t have that sparkle. Sure, they were green but they weren’t the same green. I walked out of the store and back to my brothers.
I remembered two minutes ago when I was walking out of the room.
“I promised remember and thanks Is you’re a great friend” I said and then I walked out the door. “Too bad that’s all we’ll ever be,” I whispered to the closed door behind me as I began to walk away.
Why didn’t I go back in there and tell her that I thought I liked her. That something about her reminded me of Joanna yet something seemed different. I shook the thought away from my head and continued walking towards my brothers who were packed and ready to leave.
*ISABELLA’S POV*
I walked over to the window in the guitar room and watched as he walked out of the store. He paused for a second and turned around. I quickly backed away before he saw me. I approached the window again seconds later but he was gone. I walked out and over to the register to continue working. It was already seven o’clock and it was a Saturday night so I only had two more hours to go before the entire mall closed including Miller Music.
*JOE’S POV*
We were in the car on our way back to the hotel after a long day of signing autographs and searching for Kevin’s Cinderella. I was relieved when he told me that he had found her but something just didn’t feel right. It seems way too easy. I mean she ran out devastated after those horrible girls treated her so badly. I don’t think she would come out to the light so easily and so quickly. If it were me I would be sad and crying and embarrassed to even show my face. I would be scared. But I'm not that girl. Maybe she’s just different and maybe she’s just brave. Still, I find it way to quick then my brother tells me that she wants to go out tonight. I don’t know but something’s up and I'm going to find out what.
We arrived at the hotel about a half hour later just to get ready and leave again. As soon as we got upstairs and into our room, Kevin began his planning and I went straight to the laptop. I signed onto my aim and saw that Isabella wasn’t online. I wonder what she’s doing right now. She’s probably busy work…
“Hello Joe” Kevin said snapping me out of my thoughts. “Earth to Joe” he waved his hand in my face.
“Huh” I said as I signed off aim.
“Did you hear anything I said?” he asked as he sat next to me.
“Not really” I replied.
“Well are you going?” he asked.
“Where?” I replied with a question.
“Out with Joanna and her sister tonight” he said.
“Uh I guess sure why not?” I answered.
“Alright then get ready she’ll be here in an hour” he said and he got up and walked to the bathroom.
Nick and I quickly got ready while Kevin took forever. I knew he was in the bathroom ironing his hair. I could smell it. After about a half hour after Nick and I were ready, we heard the hotel room phone ring.
“I got it,” I said to Nick who attempted to get it.
“Hello” I said into the receiver.
“Mr. Jonas you have a visitor downstairs by the name of Joanna” the concierge replied.
“Okay we’ll be down in a sec thanks” I said before hanging up. “Kevin your girlfriend’s here” I yelled to the bathroom door as I knocked on the door “We’ll be downstairs” I said as I grabbed my jacket and headed towards the door.
“Okay I'm done,” he said coming out of the bathroom and grabbing his jacket.
“Let’s go” I said to Nick as we opened the door and walked out.
We got into the elevator and made our way down. When the elevator doors opened we walked into the lobby and saw her sitting on the couch with someone who resembled her I'm guessing it was her sister.
We had our introductions and then made our way out to Joanna’s car. She had a Hummer H3 in a really nice royal blue. The interior was really nice. It had black leather seats and a touch screen radio with TVs behind every seat. The windows were tinted really dark. My first guess was that this girl had money and a lot of it. She drove in front with Kevin. Her sister Juliet sat next to me in the back and Nick sat on my left side. It was obvious she had a crush on me. It was somewhat awkward because she kept staring at me and batting her eyes. I was so uncomfortable sitting by her. I was so glad when we finally arrived at downtown Miami.
Juliet said this place was called Bayside. It had a lot of shops and restaurants and there was a marina where there were a lot of ships. There was from romantic ships to eat dinner to party ships that looked like nightclubs with their bright strobe lights. We rode a ferry called Captain Jimmy's Fiesta (Party Boat). It was a club in a boat. It was a lot of fun dancing in a moving nightclub until Juliet started grinding on me. At first, I didn’t mind until she started to move sexually on me. When I say sexually, I mean sexually she even tried to touch me and that was after she tried to kiss me. Thankfully, the boat stopped when we arrived back at the marina and I hurriedly rushed onto the dock. I tried my best to stay away from her. I even told Nick and he totally understood. That as after he had a good laugh about it. He tried his best to stay by me so that she didn’t get the chance to try anything again. We went to eat then we went to watch a performance by the marina. There was a cute little stage by the water where people would just sit and dance to people playing music and singing. It was really nice. When we arrived back at the car I made sure I got the window and Nick sat next to me and Juliet on the complete other side of him far from me, I could tell she was kind of bumped but it still didn’t stop her from gawking at me.
We arrived at the hotel and I quickly jumped off the car and waved goodbye. I wanted no physical contact with Juliet whatsoever. I was afraid she might grab my butt or something. I quickly walked into the hotel before she jumped off the car and ran after me. Nick followed behind me laughing as I made my way into the elevator.
“So have a nice night Joe?” he said sarcastically as we reached our floor.
“So not funny Nick” I said sourly as the doors opened and I walked out with him trailing behind.
“Yea it was Joe it was hilarious and you know it” he said as we entered our room.
“Whatever” I said as I made my way towards the laptop.
I looked at the clock to see that it was ten thirty. I grabbed the laptop and signed on aim. Isabella had to be online.
IM For: rockstar550
liveformusic:Hey Bella! =D what's up?
rockstar550:Hey Joe! =) How ya been?
liveformusic:I’ve been good and you?
rockstar550:I’ve been okay you know getting by
liveformusic:How was your birthday?
rockstar550:It was actually very full of adventure
liveformusic:really?
rockstar550:Yeah
liveformusic:what did you do?
rockstar550:I went to a concert
liveformusic:which one?
rockstar550:some band called the Jonas Brothers
liveformusic:oh really
rockstar550:yeah
liveformusic:I never knew you liked them
rockstar550:I didn’t my best friends little sister made me listen to them and then someone gave me free tickets
liveformusic:so what did you think?
rockstar550:they were pretty good I liked it they did a very good performance
liveformusic:thank you
rockstar550:huh?
liveformusic:I'm sorry I was talking to my brother and I wrote what I said to him sorry
rockstar550: oh well I got to go to bed I have work tomorrow
liveformusic:alright then I’ll talk to you tomorrow then
rockstar550:alright bye Joe and thanks for caring about me so much you’re a great friend
liveformusic:same here bye Isabella
rockstar550:bye
rockstar550 has signed off
Too bad friends is all we could ever be.
CHAPTER 15:
I stood there and heard him put himself down. It hurt me to hear him talk like that. I wonder who he was talking about. It was probably about his supposed girlfriend that model whose name I can’t remember at this time. I fought with myself on whether to walk over to him or not. As I backed away, I accidently walked into a guitar that was on its stand near my leg but I caught it just before it hit the ground. Unfortunately, I couldn’t avoid the noise it made when my leg kicked it and it fell off the stand. Kevin stopped talking and quickly turned around to face me.
“Is?” he said questioningly.
“I was just coming to see if you needed help in anything,” I said as I felt my face turn red.
“How long were you standing there?” he asked as he slowly set the guitar down.
“A while” I answered.
“Did you hear that?” he asked.
“That meaning you singing or that meaning you talking to yourself” I answered more like a question.
“Both” he answered as he turned back to pick up the guitar.
“Yeah I heard that it was beautiful,” I said as I walked over to him.
“You really think so?” he asked as he turned to face me.
“I know so and plus does it look like I would lie to you” I said with a smile.
“Thanks” he said returning the smile.
“Hey and for the record the song was really good for a so called awesome band” I replied causing him to laugh.
“Funny you know Is that’s very funny” he replied. “I’ll show you an awesome band I promise”
“I’ll remember to hold you to that,” I said as I pulled a stool and sat beside him.
“Deal” he said as he picked up the guitar. “I think I found her,” he said as he began strumming.
“Who?” I asked.
“Joanna. I think I found her but at the same time I'm not sure,” he said confusing me.
“Ok explain,” I asked.
“Well you remember those two girls that yelled saying they knew who my Cinderella was?” he asked.
“Yeah” I replied. How could I forget them they were my evil cousins?
“Well it turns out one of them was her. You know the tall one with light skin, green eyes and long light brown hair straight down to her waist” he described. “That’s Joanna,” he added. No that’s Virginia I wanted to say.
“Oh really” I replied with a hint of sarcasm. What a lying bitch.
“Yeah she told me that she had a great time last night before she was chased away and she invited me to go out with her and my brothers tonight” he explained.
“Oh that’s great I hope you have fun,” I said as I got up. “I should really head back to work” I started to make my way to the door.
“But there’s something about her that doesn’t seem quite right” he stopped me. “I don’t know what it is but she just doesn’t seem like the girl I met last night,” he said as he walked over and stood in front of me.
“I never noticed how beautiful your eyes are,” he said as he looked into my eyes. “They’re green,” he said as he stepped closer to me.
“Thanks I got them from my grandmother” I replied as my eyes locked with his.
“They look exactly like Joanna’s eyes,” he said as he slowly placed his palm on my cheek.
“Um” I said as my heart began to race. “As you were saying? What doesn’t feel right about her?” I said breaking eye contact and turning away.
“Oh um well I don’t know she just doesn’t seem herself you know like something’s changed about her” he said stepping back.
“Like what exactly?” I asked trying to somewhat understand.
“Well yesterday she was all shy and happy about everything that was happening. We won best costume and you should’ve seen her she was surprised as if she’d never won anything in her life. She had this sparkle in her eye that I’ve never seen in anyone’s eyes before. I mean you could see that she was really enjoying herself. As if it were her first time having fun and letting loose. Then today she’s all cocky and confident you know. The complete opposite of what I loved about her. And I'm not sure if I made the right decision on letting her get to me so easily today. I mean what if it’s not really her,” he explained and he was right. It wasn’t really her. She was an imposter but I couldn’t tell him that.
“What did you feel last night?” I asked.
“For the first time in four years I felt happy spending time with a great girl who treated me right” he replied looking away but I could hear the sadness in his voice.
“And what do you feel at this moment?”
“Confused about my feelings and my judgment” he said looking at me.
“What about your girlfriend?” I asked curiously. I'm guessing he forgot about her.
“That’s a whole other problem. We’ve been on a on and off relationship for four years now and I don’t know where that’s going to take me but it won’t be to happiness I can assure you that. She’s controlling and demanding but she owns my heart what can I do. Let me tell you something she’s not very good at caring for it. But you can’t control who you love. Your heart betrays you in ways you can’t imagine and in ways you don’t understand and you probably never will but it’s what the heart chooses though. I love her or at least I think I still do. I don’t know it’s all just too much,” he said with tear-filled eyes.
“Just try this. Call her, speak to her, then go out with this girl tonight, and have fun. Afterwards you tell me what you feel is right. Tell me if any of those girls are worth the pain and suffering you go through,” I advised.
“You really are great Is I'm glad we ran into each other literally. You know tonight’s my last night but I really hope to see you again. How about I give you a call next time I'm in town and we can take a trip around Miami,” he offered.
“Sounds like a plan to me” I said smiling as I handed him my phone, he entered his number, and I did as well to his phone.
“So I guess I’ll see you around” he said as he placed the guitar back on its stand and walked over to me. “And you really do have pretty eyes. Probably the most gorgeous green eyes ever,” he said as he softly kissed me on the cheek and headed to the door.
“I’ll see you on TV and stuff Mr. Jonas. And remember you still have to show me a so called awesome band” I said smiling.
“I promised remember and thanks Is you’re a great friend” he said and with that he opened the door and walked out of my life.
“Too bad that’s all we’ll ever be,” I whispered to the closed door in front of me.
“Is?” he said questioningly.
“I was just coming to see if you needed help in anything,” I said as I felt my face turn red.
“How long were you standing there?” he asked as he slowly set the guitar down.
“A while” I answered.
“Did you hear that?” he asked.
“That meaning you singing or that meaning you talking to yourself” I answered more like a question.
“Both” he answered as he turned back to pick up the guitar.
“Yeah I heard that it was beautiful,” I said as I walked over to him.
“You really think so?” he asked as he turned to face me.
“I know so and plus does it look like I would lie to you” I said with a smile.
“Thanks” he said returning the smile.
“Hey and for the record the song was really good for a so called awesome band” I replied causing him to laugh.
“Funny you know Is that’s very funny” he replied. “I’ll show you an awesome band I promise”
“I’ll remember to hold you to that,” I said as I pulled a stool and sat beside him.
“Deal” he said as he picked up the guitar. “I think I found her,” he said as he began strumming.
“Who?” I asked.
“Joanna. I think I found her but at the same time I'm not sure,” he said confusing me.
“Ok explain,” I asked.
“Well you remember those two girls that yelled saying they knew who my Cinderella was?” he asked.
“Yeah” I replied. How could I forget them they were my evil cousins?
“Well it turns out one of them was her. You know the tall one with light skin, green eyes and long light brown hair straight down to her waist” he described. “That’s Joanna,” he added. No that’s Virginia I wanted to say.
“Oh really” I replied with a hint of sarcasm. What a lying bitch.
“Yeah she told me that she had a great time last night before she was chased away and she invited me to go out with her and my brothers tonight” he explained.
“Oh that’s great I hope you have fun,” I said as I got up. “I should really head back to work” I started to make my way to the door.
“But there’s something about her that doesn’t seem quite right” he stopped me. “I don’t know what it is but she just doesn’t seem like the girl I met last night,” he said as he walked over and stood in front of me.
“I never noticed how beautiful your eyes are,” he said as he looked into my eyes. “They’re green,” he said as he stepped closer to me.
“Thanks I got them from my grandmother” I replied as my eyes locked with his.
“They look exactly like Joanna’s eyes,” he said as he slowly placed his palm on my cheek.
“Um” I said as my heart began to race. “As you were saying? What doesn’t feel right about her?” I said breaking eye contact and turning away.
“Oh um well I don’t know she just doesn’t seem herself you know like something’s changed about her” he said stepping back.
“Like what exactly?” I asked trying to somewhat understand.
“Well yesterday she was all shy and happy about everything that was happening. We won best costume and you should’ve seen her she was surprised as if she’d never won anything in her life. She had this sparkle in her eye that I’ve never seen in anyone’s eyes before. I mean you could see that she was really enjoying herself. As if it were her first time having fun and letting loose. Then today she’s all cocky and confident you know. The complete opposite of what I loved about her. And I'm not sure if I made the right decision on letting her get to me so easily today. I mean what if it’s not really her,” he explained and he was right. It wasn’t really her. She was an imposter but I couldn’t tell him that.
“What did you feel last night?” I asked.
“For the first time in four years I felt happy spending time with a great girl who treated me right” he replied looking away but I could hear the sadness in his voice.
“And what do you feel at this moment?”
“Confused about my feelings and my judgment” he said looking at me.
“What about your girlfriend?” I asked curiously. I'm guessing he forgot about her.
“That’s a whole other problem. We’ve been on a on and off relationship for four years now and I don’t know where that’s going to take me but it won’t be to happiness I can assure you that. She’s controlling and demanding but she owns my heart what can I do. Let me tell you something she’s not very good at caring for it. But you can’t control who you love. Your heart betrays you in ways you can’t imagine and in ways you don’t understand and you probably never will but it’s what the heart chooses though. I love her or at least I think I still do. I don’t know it’s all just too much,” he said with tear-filled eyes.
“Just try this. Call her, speak to her, then go out with this girl tonight, and have fun. Afterwards you tell me what you feel is right. Tell me if any of those girls are worth the pain and suffering you go through,” I advised.
“You really are great Is I'm glad we ran into each other literally. You know tonight’s my last night but I really hope to see you again. How about I give you a call next time I'm in town and we can take a trip around Miami,” he offered.
“Sounds like a plan to me” I said smiling as I handed him my phone, he entered his number, and I did as well to his phone.
“So I guess I’ll see you around” he said as he placed the guitar back on its stand and walked over to me. “And you really do have pretty eyes. Probably the most gorgeous green eyes ever,” he said as he softly kissed me on the cheek and headed to the door.
“I’ll see you on TV and stuff Mr. Jonas. And remember you still have to show me a so called awesome band” I said smiling.
“I promised remember and thanks Is you’re a great friend” he said and with that he opened the door and walked out of my life.
“Too bad that’s all we’ll ever be,” I whispered to the closed door in front of me.
Subscribe to:
Comments (Atom)
